going out today..to socialise!

[sarahblonde32]

well today i have to go a party...just a few friends at a house, will be nice to see them as i havent seen anyone for ages...but it means i have to be sociable and talk! i have realised lately that i find it hard to talk to people, i am really hoping i dont get my horrible gagging thing and have to leave and run home. no, im going to remain calm, have a laugh, hold a conversation and not think about it, IT WONT BEAT ME!!!!

will report back!!
sarah

[heavenly]

I am sure you will have a great time, don't push yourself, just go with it. And have a fab time!! xx

[sarahblonde32]

had a nice day, all went well, no random panic attacks!its all ok when i have something to do, its ok if i can do things in my own time and drive there, and leave when i like. But today i noticed i got my stupid gagging/sick symptoms at the most peculiar times. my parents came round, all ok, but i could feel it coming...then my mum mentioned going to visit our friend in hospital, which i need to do, and i could feel my throat constricting...not at the thought of the hospital...cos that doesnt really bother me, at the thought of leaving my house...and having to talk to someone! its my mum...i dont get it...why cant i hold a conversation with someone without feeling like i need to gag??!
its reallly annoying me. i cant go on avoiding all these things i need to do..shutting myself away alone in my house isnt helping!

[allergyphobia]

singing is great for relaxing the throat muscles sarah... and makes you smile! you need to change your mindset... have you seen a doc about this?? some CBT would help you x

[paula lynne]

Well done Sarah for feeling the fear, and doing it anyway! Youve taken a massive step, well done :D

[sarahblonde32]

thanks, it felt good and i was confident to go, i made myself not think about it...which works sometimes!
Ive tried singing, humming works well, but when it comes...i cant talk, sing or anything because i will jsut gag, ive tried to 'not think about it' but once i start 'not thinking about it' its already there!!havent seen a doc..cos it just seems stupid, im sure there isnt anything there, i dont feel a lump or anything,thought maybe it was enlarged vocal chords or something..but i dont have a sore throat or anything like that. Just a gag reflex that i cant control. i think it comes with fear of 'being socialble'...having to talk to people.

[Tamsin]

Good on you Sarah....YOU will get there and then there will be no stopping you.:yesyes:
Tamsin:D

[Anne-Louise]

Hi Sarah, I'm new on here and thought I would reply as I can relate to how you feel. I don't so much get the gagging feeling but I do get a sensation of choking and my throat seizes up, my voice goes all husky when I have to talk to people and I'm feeling particularly anxious. Its horrible and what makes it worse is that I worry the other person can see it. Have you tried sucking on some throat sweets? I find it helps sometimes. I don't really have much advice but just thought I'd let you know you're not alone. x

[sam34]

i know that feeling have it with my dad i cant explain it either when he talks to me im just i dunno really words seem to die in my mouth and when he yells at me i just shut down i sit there dead and then i have touble breathing im on the floor couging,tears running down my face im seeing a counciler but that dosent seem to be doing anything but might help you trying a get one your comftable with :)

[sarahblonde32]

thanks, i will go to a counsellor, but im afraid to talk!! its horrible. i have tried all sweets, someone once suggested a throat spray to numb the throat, im going to try that. i need to not be afriad of it...but thats easier said than done!
i want to be normal again!!!!!!!!!!!