Granny Primark
21-02-11, 11:49
As many of you know I turned to that demon drink everytime I had a problem. And my God ive had my share of them like everyone else these last few years.
Finishing work 5 years ago cus of panic and anxiety (brought on by working too many hours, often 60 hours a week or even more) left me with agrophobia, lack of self confidence and self worth and too much time for me to dwell on my probs.
In order to be able go shopping with my hubby id have a can of lager, then it would be a glass of wine and before I knew what was happening it became a drink everytime something upset me.
A drink made me sleep and when I was sleeping I wasnt hurting.
Then one Thurseday morning 3 months ago I woke up and realised I wasnt living I was existing.
I sought help. It was difficult cus I felt so ashamed of myself. I used to look down on people that drank.
Its been really tough going and still isnt easy. But ive got a brill counsellor who has helped me so much and been so supportive.
Giving me brill advice. i.e. if id have a glass of wine and it was 11% volume have a glass that was 9%.
3 weeks ago I became ill because I havent been eating for weeks.
Ive spent most of the time in bed cus I was so weak. If your not eating properly you are prone to viral infections that cant be treated they just go on their own.
The nurse has been brill giving me great advice and slowly im begining to eat. Only little bits. i.e. trifle,ice cream, rice pudding, cuppa soup and also drinking complan.
But something good has come out of this.
The drinking has virtually stopped!:D
I have a cup of tea with a drop of whiskey in every morning and at night I have a glass of guiness with blackcurrent.
I dont gulp it, I just sip it.
My daughter txt me yesterday saying she was soooo proud of me. She said its great to have her best mate back! I cried my eyes out. How could I have been so stupid and selfish.
I adore my daughters 3 year old katie. Shes the love of my life. I never drank when I was looking after her.
I drank cus I couldnt cope with probs.
Id always coped before and was anti drinking so goodness knows why I suddenly changed.
I can ring my counsellor any time. I rang him last week and told him I was frightened that when I am fully recovered I might turn to drink again.
He reasured me that he wouldnt let me.
He said the counselling and support was there for as long as I needed it.
I feel blessed.
Hopefully some good may come of this and in time I would like to be of help to others. I need to be needed.
There is nothing id like better cus I was a carer for 20 years both in nursing homes and in the community.
I try not to think of the future regarding drink. I just take each day at a time.
Finishing work 5 years ago cus of panic and anxiety (brought on by working too many hours, often 60 hours a week or even more) left me with agrophobia, lack of self confidence and self worth and too much time for me to dwell on my probs.
In order to be able go shopping with my hubby id have a can of lager, then it would be a glass of wine and before I knew what was happening it became a drink everytime something upset me.
A drink made me sleep and when I was sleeping I wasnt hurting.
Then one Thurseday morning 3 months ago I woke up and realised I wasnt living I was existing.
I sought help. It was difficult cus I felt so ashamed of myself. I used to look down on people that drank.
Its been really tough going and still isnt easy. But ive got a brill counsellor who has helped me so much and been so supportive.
Giving me brill advice. i.e. if id have a glass of wine and it was 11% volume have a glass that was 9%.
3 weeks ago I became ill because I havent been eating for weeks.
Ive spent most of the time in bed cus I was so weak. If your not eating properly you are prone to viral infections that cant be treated they just go on their own.
The nurse has been brill giving me great advice and slowly im begining to eat. Only little bits. i.e. trifle,ice cream, rice pudding, cuppa soup and also drinking complan.
But something good has come out of this.
The drinking has virtually stopped!:D
I have a cup of tea with a drop of whiskey in every morning and at night I have a glass of guiness with blackcurrent.
I dont gulp it, I just sip it.
My daughter txt me yesterday saying she was soooo proud of me. She said its great to have her best mate back! I cried my eyes out. How could I have been so stupid and selfish.
I adore my daughters 3 year old katie. Shes the love of my life. I never drank when I was looking after her.
I drank cus I couldnt cope with probs.
Id always coped before and was anti drinking so goodness knows why I suddenly changed.
I can ring my counsellor any time. I rang him last week and told him I was frightened that when I am fully recovered I might turn to drink again.
He reasured me that he wouldnt let me.
He said the counselling and support was there for as long as I needed it.
I feel blessed.
Hopefully some good may come of this and in time I would like to be of help to others. I need to be needed.
There is nothing id like better cus I was a carer for 20 years both in nursing homes and in the community.
I try not to think of the future regarding drink. I just take each day at a time.