LisaLisa
23-02-11, 12:41
Hi everyone
I havent been posting for awhile much now bcause i ws feeling much better. Lots to do with not googling much. But I was off work ill at the start of the week and started to really focus on health worries again.
I have all these things going on which sometimes I am aware of more than other times but before i constatnyl tried to find the answer on google and I had to stop it becuase it was ruining my life. The reason was that I am unable to accept that I dont have HIV. I have been tested five times since my fear started and they have all been negative. The period of my life that I could say I may have been at any risk of catching it was the beginiing of 2002....( boyfriend who was sleeping around and a peircing in someones house) and my fear dodnt start until I got very stressed about some stuff in 2007. My tests were between 2007 and 2009.
Well the symptoms I have keep linking up to hiv infection on the net.
For example I seem to have lots of symptoms of low thyroid function ( although was tested and found to be normal through out pregnancy in 2008/09 becuase midwife read in my notes that I had had a cyst on my thyroid in 2003 )
So I looked up low thyroid and thought maybe that wasnt the end of the world. I thought that for ages and then yesterday I stupidly searched ion it again and found this absolutely horrible site called FP Notebook, which seems to be for clinicians and straightaway I saw - secondary hypothyroid causes HIV INFECTION!
I felt so sick. I did really well getting the overwhelming fear down , but it was so hard. But now today Im so depressed. I just feel I cant do this anymore. Im so worried for my daughters well being incase the tests are wrong...she is only two and when she was born there was blood in the waters when they broke and Im sure that would mean that she wouldhave it definately!
Can anyone help me with this and also can i ask if folks could read my symptoms and see if you have any of them?
sometimes constipated/ sometime the opposite
flushing/sweating at certain stages of the month
darker skin patches tops of inner thigh
dark black hair on legs/ major stretching out of bikini line
problems with unrefreshing sleep
gastric reflux
very soft and ridged nails
occasionallly bad dandruff along hairline - comes and goes
low blood suger at certain times of the month - very pronounced
cold hands and feet often
dryness of skin on feet and tips of index finger thumb and finger next to it.
aaaaaahhhhhhh the list is so long
Im so scared , would really like someone to take a look at my list for me
Thanks so much
Lisa
xxxxxx
I havent been posting for awhile much now bcause i ws feeling much better. Lots to do with not googling much. But I was off work ill at the start of the week and started to really focus on health worries again.
I have all these things going on which sometimes I am aware of more than other times but before i constatnyl tried to find the answer on google and I had to stop it becuase it was ruining my life. The reason was that I am unable to accept that I dont have HIV. I have been tested five times since my fear started and they have all been negative. The period of my life that I could say I may have been at any risk of catching it was the beginiing of 2002....( boyfriend who was sleeping around and a peircing in someones house) and my fear dodnt start until I got very stressed about some stuff in 2007. My tests were between 2007 and 2009.
Well the symptoms I have keep linking up to hiv infection on the net.
For example I seem to have lots of symptoms of low thyroid function ( although was tested and found to be normal through out pregnancy in 2008/09 becuase midwife read in my notes that I had had a cyst on my thyroid in 2003 )
So I looked up low thyroid and thought maybe that wasnt the end of the world. I thought that for ages and then yesterday I stupidly searched ion it again and found this absolutely horrible site called FP Notebook, which seems to be for clinicians and straightaway I saw - secondary hypothyroid causes HIV INFECTION!
I felt so sick. I did really well getting the overwhelming fear down , but it was so hard. But now today Im so depressed. I just feel I cant do this anymore. Im so worried for my daughters well being incase the tests are wrong...she is only two and when she was born there was blood in the waters when they broke and Im sure that would mean that she wouldhave it definately!
Can anyone help me with this and also can i ask if folks could read my symptoms and see if you have any of them?
sometimes constipated/ sometime the opposite
flushing/sweating at certain stages of the month
darker skin patches tops of inner thigh
dark black hair on legs/ major stretching out of bikini line
problems with unrefreshing sleep
gastric reflux
very soft and ridged nails
occasionallly bad dandruff along hairline - comes and goes
low blood suger at certain times of the month - very pronounced
cold hands and feet often
dryness of skin on feet and tips of index finger thumb and finger next to it.
aaaaaahhhhhhh the list is so long
Im so scared , would really like someone to take a look at my list for me
Thanks so much
Lisa
xxxxxx