Naty
24-02-11, 12:25
I'm not sure what I hope to get out of posting this but here goes...I've been on Citalopram for about a year and a half and previously about 12 years ago.
After a review with my doctor it was felt that I've should up my dose to 40mg (from 20mg), which I did yesterday, as I've seriously hit rock bottom and trying to struggle through work today is a nightmare, I feel so spaced out. I'm constantly thinking about the only way to end this, even more so in the past few days, to the extent of trying to sort out financial things so that no-one has the burden after I'm gone and the best way to go as I wouldn't want to cause any upset to whoever has the misfortune of finding me.
I spend most of the daily drive to work and back with tears streaming down my face and I've pretty much driven my partner away because of my mood swings and irrational behaviour, accusing him of allsorts, so much that he's going for a viewing at another place to live this evening. My children think I am completely miserable, and I know that my current state isn't helping them at all, it may even cause them to have the same issues which is tearing me apart.
I've got an anger management course next Saturday that I've been booked on, but at the minute I feel a bit like 'what's the point.
:-(
After a review with my doctor it was felt that I've should up my dose to 40mg (from 20mg), which I did yesterday, as I've seriously hit rock bottom and trying to struggle through work today is a nightmare, I feel so spaced out. I'm constantly thinking about the only way to end this, even more so in the past few days, to the extent of trying to sort out financial things so that no-one has the burden after I'm gone and the best way to go as I wouldn't want to cause any upset to whoever has the misfortune of finding me.
I spend most of the daily drive to work and back with tears streaming down my face and I've pretty much driven my partner away because of my mood swings and irrational behaviour, accusing him of allsorts, so much that he's going for a viewing at another place to live this evening. My children think I am completely miserable, and I know that my current state isn't helping them at all, it may even cause them to have the same issues which is tearing me apart.
I've got an anger management course next Saturday that I've been booked on, but at the minute I feel a bit like 'what's the point.
:-(