Greenman50
24-02-11, 20:28
After doing so well on the citralapram and comeing off the valium for a week i had a relapse last night . I,d been great for 3 weeks :D.
I have this issue of food feeling stuck in my back and globus which comes and goes , i,m seeing the doctor regular (every two weeks ) had bloods done and she says its anxiety as i also get chest pains . I was accepting this .
So was on here last night and a member "pasted" a link to help somebody out (NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS :D IT WAS JUST BEING HELPFULL) but it was from a site i came across during my dr google days :blush: i reconised it instantly and my fears about the big C suddendly hit me again , i instantly went cold . Then started sweating . Then worrying . All the old feeling came flooding back . I gave it 10 minutes and hit the fridge , 2 x cans of stella in a few minutes , 10 minutes later my stomach was on fire with nerves , i couldn,t swallow and i felt a lump in my throat . No good , had another beer washed down with 4 mg of valium , still felt like crap .
Couldn,t handle it so said to the wife and kids lets eat out....at the pub .
A few more pints later in the pub and i was as pissed as an arse :blush::blush::lac:
Had a red hot curry and was sweating even more , not sure if this was the curry or anxiety .
Because i was pissed i didn,t hardly feel any food going down my back , anyway came home and carried eating just to prove i was fine at eating .
Total cost of Anxiety £70 :blush::blush: Size of stomach ENORMOUS , couldn,t eat all day today as i was so bloated but went to work .
When i Got up this morning i was still sweating , still not feeling myself .
I really feel like i,ve let myself down and gone backwards .:scared15::scared15: Managed to hide everything from the wife and kids includeing most of the beer . Not good at all useing alcohol to cope
Rant over
I have this issue of food feeling stuck in my back and globus which comes and goes , i,m seeing the doctor regular (every two weeks ) had bloods done and she says its anxiety as i also get chest pains . I was accepting this .
So was on here last night and a member "pasted" a link to help somebody out (NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS :D IT WAS JUST BEING HELPFULL) but it was from a site i came across during my dr google days :blush: i reconised it instantly and my fears about the big C suddendly hit me again , i instantly went cold . Then started sweating . Then worrying . All the old feeling came flooding back . I gave it 10 minutes and hit the fridge , 2 x cans of stella in a few minutes , 10 minutes later my stomach was on fire with nerves , i couldn,t swallow and i felt a lump in my throat . No good , had another beer washed down with 4 mg of valium , still felt like crap .
Couldn,t handle it so said to the wife and kids lets eat out....at the pub .
A few more pints later in the pub and i was as pissed as an arse :blush::blush::lac:
Had a red hot curry and was sweating even more , not sure if this was the curry or anxiety .
Because i was pissed i didn,t hardly feel any food going down my back , anyway came home and carried eating just to prove i was fine at eating .
Total cost of Anxiety £70 :blush::blush: Size of stomach ENORMOUS , couldn,t eat all day today as i was so bloated but went to work .
When i Got up this morning i was still sweating , still not feeling myself .
I really feel like i,ve let myself down and gone backwards .:scared15::scared15: Managed to hide everything from the wife and kids includeing most of the beer . Not good at all useing alcohol to cope
Rant over