Feeling Awfull.

[panicpixie]

Hey, I just had to post on here while I'm not shaking as much and my mind is a bit clearer.

I am having a major freak out right now, and It just wont go away or stop. I Went to the doctors yesterday and He was so nice to me, and Made me realise that the thing I was worring about was nothing to worrie about at all.

But I still couldn't shake off that feeling of somthing being not quite right, and When I woke up this moring My left side of my face was slightly Numb-ish, So I poked and poked at it allllll day and now I've made that feeling worst and worst and thats all I can think about. I found a little fleshy lump Not hard at all on the inside of my cheeck and I have one on the other side too. I have the feeling that i've had them for ages, But I also Feel like they've just appeard from no where, My mind is all foggy and I can't remeber, But ALL i'm thinking Is MOUTH CANCER, and That thought will NOT go away.

I Feel like I am going TOTALLY insane, And I can't think about ANYTHING else.

Please someone give me some advice or anything.

I really need it.


x

[scaredstiff695]

hi hun i oftem get numbness in my face i wake in the night and have numbness all over in different places.
the more the sensation stays thye more you worry and starts a vicious circle x
stay calm hunni x
as for the lumps dont quite no where you mean but i think it would be strange to have them in the same place on either side

i often forget things and best thng i do is ask peole arund me thats none me years wth my anxiety and would say is that common wth me
foggy brain is so common jesus sometimes i dont no my wn kids names when im anxious xx
big hug xx

[panicpixie]

Thank you for your reply.
I feel a bit better now.
I grind my teeth alot, so That doesn't help with the numb achey feeling Lol.

[Chriswebster]

Hi panicpixie

This is my first message on any forum in the world - very exciting. I'm 39 and have suffered with anxiety and panic for half of my life. Some periods are so surreal and debilitating - I know how you are feeling, really do. I am worst at night, when my family is asleep and I feel completely alone. I fixate on health issues, like you're currently doing.

Last summer my mouth went wrong, proper wrong! Lumps bumps ulcers swelling you name it. Specialist maxillo facial consultant diagnosed erosive lichen planus - I was convinced it was cancer. I had so many symptoms. I couldn't eat properly for weeks. Had steroids for 2 months got it under control. Biopsy yielded no firm diagnosis. If it was 10 out of 10 bad then, it's now only 1 most days.

I have never told my consultant my job. I turn up in jeans and t shirt and talk about football, weather you name it except what I do because I was determined to avoid the obvious diagnosis of stress. (I am MD of a company employing 50 people so every trip to doctor ends with same diagnosis!!). But I am starting to realise that stress can cause many feelings of illness.

I'm telling you all this not to scare you - hope I'm not! But to reassure you that the symptoms we fixate on are rarely if ever what we fear they are. Your mouth thing as distressing as it is will turn out to be something really simple. Mine was terrible - even my wife thought it was bad news - but biopsy proved nothing wrong with me.

Try to believe in yourself and accept yourself for who you are and that you currently have an anxiety condition that sometimes makes you feel poorly. I find that works well for me as my mind tells me I'm going insane. Breathe from your tummy not shallow from your chest. Find some photos of some really happy memories if you can. You will have most success in keeping panic away by choosing to be positive. You need support from those closest to you to achieve this. Avoid caffeine and alcohol when you're feeling like this too.

Well my first ever post was a whopper. Hope it is helping you know that someone understands what you are going through. Take care and I hope your night is peaceful.

Chris

[panicpixie]

Hi panicpixie

This is my first message on any forum in the world - very exciting. I'm 39 and have suffered with anxiety and panic for half of my life. Some periods are so surreal and debilitating - I know how you are feeling, really do. I am worst at night, when my family is asleep and I feel completely alone. I fixate on health issues, like you're currently doing.

Last summer my mouth went wrong, proper wrong! Lumps bumps ulcers swelling you name it. Specialist maxillo facial consultant diagnosed erosive lichen planus - I was convinced it was cancer. I had so many symptoms. I couldn't eat properly for weeks. Had steroids for 2 months got it under control. Biopsy yielded no firm diagnosis. If it was 10 out of 10 bad then, it's now only 1 most days.

I have never told my consultant my job. I turn up in jeans and t shirt and talk about football, weather you name it except what I do because I was determined to avoid the obvious diagnosis of stress. (I am MD of a company employing 50 people so every trip to doctor ends with same diagnosis!!). But I am starting to realise that stress can cause many feelings of illness.

I'm telling you all this not to scare you - hope I'm not! But to reassure you that the symptoms we fixate on are rarely if ever what we fear they are. Your mouth thing as distressing as it is will turn out to be something really simple. Mine was terrible - even my wife thought it was bad news - but biopsy proved nothing wrong with me.

Try to believe in yourself and accept yourself for who you are and that you currently have an anxiety condition that sometimes makes you feel poorly. I find that works well for me as my mind tells me I'm going insane. Breathe from your tummy not shallow from your chest. Find some photos of some really happy memories if you can. You will have most success in keeping panic away by choosing to be positive. You need support from those closest to you to achieve this. Avoid caffeine and alcohol when you're feeling like this too.

Well my first ever post was a whopper. Hope it is helping you know that someone understands what you are going through. Take care and I hope your night is peaceful.

Chris

Wow, Thank you so much, I woke up today is such a panic. I couldn't handle it, my boyfriend is being very unsurportive, I know I can be difficult at times but he really doesn't help. I don't really have anyone to turn to right now.

So just reading through your post made me feel alot better.
I Have been grinding my teeth horribley and I bite really hard and clench my teeth together. So Tbh no wonder my face feels a little odd right now. The more I think about it the more I freak out. And It just seems to get worst and worst.

[Chriswebster]

Hi again. One trouble with nudging 40 is the struggles with technology.... had a reply all set to go and my phone crashed. Being technical I took the battery out and back to reset it and lost everything! Grrr.
Now, the wake up feeling weird thing is ok. I think everyone on this site will relate to it in some way. It is sort of the same principle as if you spend a long time crying before bed. You feel strange when you wake up. Makes you human and normal and this is positive!
Your boyfriend may be quite scared of how to react and how to help. This often manifests as frustration. Get him to do some reading on this site, maybe find a book that explains how common and normal anxiety sufferers really are. I remember reading that Jonny Wilkinson suffered from panic attacks - part of his drive for perfection. Winston Churchill's depression. And so on. We are not freaks my dear - something I have learnt after many years convincing myself I was. We are generally sensitive and strong people you know.

You grind your teeth then. Well I tense my neck muscles the more stressed I get. The result is a nice headache, neck pain and an osteopath visit every 2 weeks. I do it without thinking which I guess is what you are doing too. Try to challenge yourself to last 2 mins before your next grind. Then 10 then 20 etc over a few days. This helps me.

My top tip really is to accept yourself and be positive. You are special because there is only one you. No-one else can fill that role. And to get over this feeling that is oppressing you, you will need to choose positive thoughts and actions. I really do know that sometimes it can seem hopeless and I don't always walk the walk! But I have built a tool kit of positive thoughts and found some things that generally help when the panic washes over and I am learning to stand up to it.
I believe you can do it. It's going to be ok. You're not going to die, you're not mad. You are scared of something you don't need to be and you can beat it.
We're all on your side and we will win.
Sleep well
Chris