W.I.F.T.S.
03-04-06, 12:20
When I was at school I used to get really worked up about French lessons because the teacher could be quite aggressive. She demanded the highest standards and would bawl at you or humiliate you if you stepped out of line. Everybody was in awe of her and i don't think anybody really enjoyed the lessons, but i think my reaction was over the top. I would practically hyper-ventilate and I'd be wringing with sweat before the lessons.
After a while it became a source of amusement for the rest of my class mates and for the teacher too! Deep down I knew it was an over-reaction and i felt that I was 'playing up'- reacting in that way for attention or sympathy or maybe so that she'd go easy on me?!
I feel, in a way, that I still do the same thing. When I had to have blood taken recently i got myself so worked up that I ended up on a stretcher!!
I know that my reaction is way out of proportion. Both my fiancee and my previous girlfriend have said that it's like having a son rather than a boyfriend and I do kind of understand. With my ex-girlfriend I kind of expected her to look after me and make my meals and do my laundry. I'd do token chores to earn brownie points. When we split up it was like being seperated from 'the mother' (she was quite a bit older than me) and I think my panic attacks have been like a tantrum.
Does anyone else understand where I'm coming from?
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
After a while it became a source of amusement for the rest of my class mates and for the teacher too! Deep down I knew it was an over-reaction and i felt that I was 'playing up'- reacting in that way for attention or sympathy or maybe so that she'd go easy on me?!
I feel, in a way, that I still do the same thing. When I had to have blood taken recently i got myself so worked up that I ended up on a stretcher!!
I know that my reaction is way out of proportion. Both my fiancee and my previous girlfriend have said that it's like having a son rather than a boyfriend and I do kind of understand. With my ex-girlfriend I kind of expected her to look after me and make my meals and do my laundry. I'd do token chores to earn brownie points. When we split up it was like being seperated from 'the mother' (she was quite a bit older than me) and I think my panic attacks have been like a tantrum.
Does anyone else understand where I'm coming from?
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.