haziefantasie
01-03-11, 12:32
Hi everyone
Basically for the last week Ive felt like Im living in a nightmare & I dont know what to do.
It all started coz I was seeing a guy for a few weeks, but broke up with him last monday as my mood was all over the place after changing my pill & couldnt cope with a relationship. Then on weds I went to see him as I really missed him, & we agreed to try again but take it really slowly.
Then we both got calls from mutual friends of ours telling us to get out of town coz there were people coming after us to kill him! It was something to do with him upsetting his ex girlfriend. So I decided Id be best off without him & went to stay with my brother who lives in the next town. I stayed there for the next 2 nights & managed to go to work, then at the weekend I came to my mums who lives about 100 miles away & I have been here since.
So now I havent got a clue what to do next. Ive been told by my ex & my friend that its been blown out of proportion & that if anything was going to happen it wouldve done by now. Ive had to take time off work sick coz Im at my mums & I know that I wouldnt be able to concentrate if I was there anyway with all this going on. I live on my own so my family arent happy with me going back there, & Im worried that if I do Ill have a breakdown or something. For a while Ive been thinking of moving back to where I went to uni as I have close friends there, so its been suggested that I do that now. But the thought of getting a new job & house now just fills me with dread - it would be stressful enough even without anxiety & depression. & to makes things worse I really miss my ex & he wants to get back together, & Im so tempted to do it even though Ive told my family Ill stay away from him :weep:
Im sorry about the essay & hope it all makes sense, I just dont know where to turn or what to do & its driving me crazy :weep:
Basically for the last week Ive felt like Im living in a nightmare & I dont know what to do.
It all started coz I was seeing a guy for a few weeks, but broke up with him last monday as my mood was all over the place after changing my pill & couldnt cope with a relationship. Then on weds I went to see him as I really missed him, & we agreed to try again but take it really slowly.
Then we both got calls from mutual friends of ours telling us to get out of town coz there were people coming after us to kill him! It was something to do with him upsetting his ex girlfriend. So I decided Id be best off without him & went to stay with my brother who lives in the next town. I stayed there for the next 2 nights & managed to go to work, then at the weekend I came to my mums who lives about 100 miles away & I have been here since.
So now I havent got a clue what to do next. Ive been told by my ex & my friend that its been blown out of proportion & that if anything was going to happen it wouldve done by now. Ive had to take time off work sick coz Im at my mums & I know that I wouldnt be able to concentrate if I was there anyway with all this going on. I live on my own so my family arent happy with me going back there, & Im worried that if I do Ill have a breakdown or something. For a while Ive been thinking of moving back to where I went to uni as I have close friends there, so its been suggested that I do that now. But the thought of getting a new job & house now just fills me with dread - it would be stressful enough even without anxiety & depression. & to makes things worse I really miss my ex & he wants to get back together, & Im so tempted to do it even though Ive told my family Ill stay away from him :weep:
Im sorry about the essay & hope it all makes sense, I just dont know where to turn or what to do & its driving me crazy :weep: