LaneyLost
02-03-11, 19:03
I started a new job about a year ago, it was going to be an eventful year for me as I was getting married, I have an active social life and like having a busy calender.
A couple of months after starting this new Job I had a panic attack, I last had one of these about 15 years ago when I was in an abusive relationship and thankfully they stopped when I got out of the situation, although it took a while.
The new job was quite a challenge and my boss is a hard task master, but I felt sure I could do a good job as previous roles that I had had been quite demanding. I managed to get through the day thinking it was just a one of and then they got worse and worse until I had to take time off to see a doctor who prescribed me Beta-Blockers and A/Depressants. I put all this down to the stress of the wedding and started to cut down on some of my other social activities. The medication seemed to make me worse and I was getting stick from my colleagues about being "spacey" so I came off it and for a while I was okay, we had a great wedding and it was the best day of my life.
Over the months I was feeling more and more unhappy in work, I tried to enjoy the role as much as I could but would leave work feeling like I had accomplished nothing and the work that I did was not worthwhile, this is actually true, the job is not great, not a good environment, very bitchy and the goal post moves on a daily basis so you always feel like you have under achieved.
Another thing I noticed was the amount of times I had picked up minor ailments where as before I never got sick hardly ever, I was really trying to get on in the job but it was like one thing after another!
Recently the anxiety has returned and not just panic attacks (which i can control quite well now) but chest pains, insomnia, indigestion. Its been like my body won't give me a break.
After another visit with my GP he suggested that it was my job that was causing the panic attacks and anxiety, after all its only when I'm there, on the way there or thinking about work that I get sick/anxious.
So I have given up my job and I have to say the anxiety seems to have improved no end. I still have to find another job but I certainly know I will be staying away from this Industry.
I have worked for almost 20 years and had a fair amount of responsibility without any problem, this is the worst job I have ever had.
Moral of the story - Is there something in your life making you ill? Get Rid OF IT!!! NOW!
Peace and love x
A couple of months after starting this new Job I had a panic attack, I last had one of these about 15 years ago when I was in an abusive relationship and thankfully they stopped when I got out of the situation, although it took a while.
The new job was quite a challenge and my boss is a hard task master, but I felt sure I could do a good job as previous roles that I had had been quite demanding. I managed to get through the day thinking it was just a one of and then they got worse and worse until I had to take time off to see a doctor who prescribed me Beta-Blockers and A/Depressants. I put all this down to the stress of the wedding and started to cut down on some of my other social activities. The medication seemed to make me worse and I was getting stick from my colleagues about being "spacey" so I came off it and for a while I was okay, we had a great wedding and it was the best day of my life.
Over the months I was feeling more and more unhappy in work, I tried to enjoy the role as much as I could but would leave work feeling like I had accomplished nothing and the work that I did was not worthwhile, this is actually true, the job is not great, not a good environment, very bitchy and the goal post moves on a daily basis so you always feel like you have under achieved.
Another thing I noticed was the amount of times I had picked up minor ailments where as before I never got sick hardly ever, I was really trying to get on in the job but it was like one thing after another!
Recently the anxiety has returned and not just panic attacks (which i can control quite well now) but chest pains, insomnia, indigestion. Its been like my body won't give me a break.
After another visit with my GP he suggested that it was my job that was causing the panic attacks and anxiety, after all its only when I'm there, on the way there or thinking about work that I get sick/anxious.
So I have given up my job and I have to say the anxiety seems to have improved no end. I still have to find another job but I certainly know I will be staying away from this Industry.
I have worked for almost 20 years and had a fair amount of responsibility without any problem, this is the worst job I have ever had.
Moral of the story - Is there something in your life making you ill? Get Rid OF IT!!! NOW!
Peace and love x