krista
04-03-11, 23:18
Hi, just need to know that someone is out there. I feel v. alone as I am trying hard to deal with some horrible health & life problems. Because of this I feel v.overwhelmed & on the edge of uncontrollable panic most of the time - which would have a severe effect on my health & probably put me in hospital. Which I dread as I am completely phobic about confinement & physical restriction/loss of personal freedom etc. (thx to years of losing my mobility & having to spend a vast amount of time being bed ridden & housebound all of which has resulted in my current phobic state etc.) I feel that if I go to my doctor, he/she would probably put me in hospital anyway & that is the v.last thing I need or could deal with right now anyway ! Catch 22..... so it continues & I feel hopelessly trapped. More panic! for me I guess that panic is my response to being unable to find a way out of my fears & to be able to get out from under my oppressive & v.real life situations. I was shut in a cellar as a child & also in some other places through out my life, all of which completely freaked me out, so confinement of any kind just pushes all the wrong buttons for me. Sorry to go on, & thx for reading this.