Will there ever be an end to this?

[debbsi]

Hi
I havent posted for quite a while on here, that doesnt mean everything has been OK though :(

I've suffered from anxiety to some degree for as long as I remember, but it turned into panic attacks about 5 years ago - luckily I managed to control those and I dont get them now,

The problem is - this damn worrying - I'm fed up of it all, just as I combat one worry another one lurks around the corner - and I know that 'normal' people wouldnt worry about what I do - but that doesnt help me

I tried CBT but it didnt work for me, I dont want to take meds, I have read Clare Weekes book. What else can I do? I know that PMT is a trigger, but only sussed that one out recently - getting worse as I get older.

I work in healthcare - and am a part time student of occupational therapy, I could really do to sort myself out - as its getting in the way of my life.

I just want to feel legitimately happy - not just an act for everyone else

Sorry for the rambling - theres no one else I can talk to, I dont want to burden my loved ones with all of this.

x

[Idstain]

Hi debbsi,

Please check out the book below in my signature. It "cured" me. The biggest change between how i was and how i am now is i've changed my relationship to anxiety (and other painful emotions). I used to fight and toil with my emotional pain but thanks to mindfulness and the book below i now approach them with curiosity and acceptance rather than more fear and hostility.

I just want you to know that recovery is always available and possible.

this is an excellent introduction to mindfulness http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3nwwKbM_vJc

I only found this book a few months ago but i think this would have cured me by itself had the book in my signature not existed http://www.amazon.co.uk/Mindful-Path-Self-compassion-Christopher-Germer/dp/1593859759/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1299615797&sr=8-1

good luck :)

[debbsi]

Hi
Thanks for the info

I've been looking into mindfulness recently and tried the meditation for a few days - I really found it beneficial.

Problem is finding somewhere quiet and private to meditate - I am currenlty on a full time placement an hours drive away - so not got much time to myself at the moment - but i do intend to explore it further when this semester at uni is over.

I'll have a look at that book - looks reasonably priced too.

I have found this website useful:
[URL="http://www.getsomeheadspace.com/"]

I have just found it hard to stick to anything and I know that for it to work I need to meditate everyday.

x

[lynn1960]

everyone worries even normal people as you call them just because they look relaxed you dont know whats going on inside it will get better and you will have days where you will think i haVE NOT PANICKED FOR A HOUR THEN IT WILL GET LONGER AND TURN IONTO DAYS THEN WEEKS