topaz02
05-04-06, 10:44
i posted the other day about my symptoms and that even though I thought it was anxiety, I was still extremely worried (health anxiety). Thanks so much for your replies.
i had a doctors appointment last night, as a follow up to a completely unrelated problem. I was very low and depressed yesterday, so when I went in, I told him about my symptoms. He said he was sure it was anxiety, but that he could send me for a brain scan.
i completely freaked out. i've been worrying about my symptoms 24/7 for weeks - and I just wanted him to say 'it's just anxiety'. i had a panic attack and couldn't calm down. he said he suggested the scan so I wouldn't sue him (the appointment was under private healthcare).
i know a lot of you will think 'if you're so worried, have the bloody scan!' - but i just couldn't do it - I completely freaked. Rather than my warped brain thinking 'he's covering himself and suggesting a scan' - my brain was screaming at me 'oh my god, you told him about the headaches, and now he thinks there's something wrong, and sending you for scans'.
He was not sympathic at all to me sobbing in front of him - I felt like I was wasting his time. I guess it really shocked me that he wanted to do scans etc - in i suppose in fact he was just looking at the symptoms, and tacking on whatever test seemed to fit.
I actually don't feel too bad today. I have a few head pain twinges, and of course with each one my mind goes ott and thinks 'oh my god, the dr was right - something is wrong and you need scans'.
I'm sorry I'm rambling - I'm just trying to sort out what exactly happened last night, and why I reacted the way I did. The dr said at the end that it was my body and my choice ultimately (I suppose if he thought there was something terrible going on, he'd have insisted on the scans etc). He suggested I look into treatment for the anxiety and depression.
I plan to make an appointment with my GP. I've been denying it for too long - I need some help to deal with all this.
One good thing from last night - I was in such a state when I got home, it forced my partner to just comfort me and listen to my worries (which he hasn't really done until now).
T
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i had a doctors appointment last night, as a follow up to a completely unrelated problem. I was very low and depressed yesterday, so when I went in, I told him about my symptoms. He said he was sure it was anxiety, but that he could send me for a brain scan.
i completely freaked out. i've been worrying about my symptoms 24/7 for weeks - and I just wanted him to say 'it's just anxiety'. i had a panic attack and couldn't calm down. he said he suggested the scan so I wouldn't sue him (the appointment was under private healthcare).
i know a lot of you will think 'if you're so worried, have the bloody scan!' - but i just couldn't do it - I completely freaked. Rather than my warped brain thinking 'he's covering himself and suggesting a scan' - my brain was screaming at me 'oh my god, you told him about the headaches, and now he thinks there's something wrong, and sending you for scans'.
He was not sympathic at all to me sobbing in front of him - I felt like I was wasting his time. I guess it really shocked me that he wanted to do scans etc - in i suppose in fact he was just looking at the symptoms, and tacking on whatever test seemed to fit.
I actually don't feel too bad today. I have a few head pain twinges, and of course with each one my mind goes ott and thinks 'oh my god, the dr was right - something is wrong and you need scans'.
I'm sorry I'm rambling - I'm just trying to sort out what exactly happened last night, and why I reacted the way I did. The dr said at the end that it was my body and my choice ultimately (I suppose if he thought there was something terrible going on, he'd have insisted on the scans etc). He suggested I look into treatment for the anxiety and depression.
I plan to make an appointment with my GP. I've been denying it for too long - I need some help to deal with all this.
One good thing from last night - I was in such a state when I got home, it forced my partner to just comfort me and listen to my worries (which he hasn't really done until now).
T
x
Worrying Is Like A Rocking Horse - It Doesn't Actually Get You Anywhere...