bathtub
11-03-11, 14:43
I have been doing pretty well since I had a breakdown in August last year. I have always had high levels of anxiety and though the counselling was diagnosed with Aspergers. I am currently on Cytalopram also for depression. Things had been pretty stable until last night, I cycled home from work, ready to go out for meditation (which has been a massive source of strength and reassurance for me), but I was running late, the house was untidy and my mum had just arrived for a visit. I went to get some bedding for her before leaving and the guest bed jammed in the shut position. I tried to free it and got really wound up, saw that the time was past when I usually leave for meditation and that was it, i had a massive anxiety attack and ended up ditching meditation and shutting myself in my room for the rest of the night. I felt terrible because usually I can distance myself from the anxiety (learned though meditation) and just kind of watch it from outside (if that makes sense) but last night was like a relapse to August when I was at my worst. I feel terrible now and scared that the progress I thought I had made was just a lull.
I am going through a separation from my wife of 13 years at the moment but it's amicable and I am looking forward to having my own place (just about ready to move in), all these positives and then it all comes crashing down because of a jammed bed and an untidy house.
Sorry to unload but I feel really low at the moment
bathtub
I am going through a separation from my wife of 13 years at the moment but it's amicable and I am looking forward to having my own place (just about ready to move in), all these positives and then it all comes crashing down because of a jammed bed and an untidy house.
Sorry to unload but I feel really low at the moment
bathtub