W.I.F.T.S.
06-04-06, 11:46
On Tuesday I had a 4 hour interview for a job that seems like loads of fun: designing posters, organising fun days, writing pieces for their in-house magazine. The company is brilliant, they have their own football pitches, cricket pitches, squash courts, restaurant and pub! The people all seem really friendly. I'm in the last 3 and things are (hopefully) looking pretty good.
Ok, I'm not thrilled that it's 15 miles away from home- driving there I felt quite anxious and I almost didn't even go because of my nerves. I kept telling myself that I'm a 30 year old man and not a 7 year old boy, I can handle driving that short distance.
The interview was really long and thorough (I was there from 10 am- 2 pm) and I was due at work for 2 pm. i told them that I broke down though. They said they wanted to progress me to a 2nd interview with the UK chief executive there and then!!
This is the second intensive interview I have had in a fortnight. I had another with a bank last week and during that I felt like I was going to have to run out of the room. I didn't and I was really proud of myself for that and for going to the interview at all.
I know I've done really well whether i get the job or not. The thing that concerns me is that if I don't get the job I'll feel depressed being stuck in my current job, which I loathe. And if I do get the job I'm concerned that I'll sabotage myself by arriving late, not giving my all to my work or having a bad attitude. I have been like that before, but I guess what I have to realise is that even if I get the job I haven't 'made it' yet, I've just given myself an opportunity.
The job is something that i would like to do long term. I would like to commit myself to it and not act as if I am doing them a favour by turning up- which is something that I do to cover up my nerves.
In some ways it is as if I can feel a change waiting to happen in me. I'm sure that my current job is a big factor in my depression and anxiety- it's hard, physical work from 2-10 pm most evenings and at weekends too, which makes me feel exhausted and that I'm missing out on social activities. it will be a huge weight off my shoulders when I do eventually leave and I'd feel so much more relaxed and inspired if i could get the job I have gone for.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
Ok, I'm not thrilled that it's 15 miles away from home- driving there I felt quite anxious and I almost didn't even go because of my nerves. I kept telling myself that I'm a 30 year old man and not a 7 year old boy, I can handle driving that short distance.
The interview was really long and thorough (I was there from 10 am- 2 pm) and I was due at work for 2 pm. i told them that I broke down though. They said they wanted to progress me to a 2nd interview with the UK chief executive there and then!!
This is the second intensive interview I have had in a fortnight. I had another with a bank last week and during that I felt like I was going to have to run out of the room. I didn't and I was really proud of myself for that and for going to the interview at all.
I know I've done really well whether i get the job or not. The thing that concerns me is that if I don't get the job I'll feel depressed being stuck in my current job, which I loathe. And if I do get the job I'm concerned that I'll sabotage myself by arriving late, not giving my all to my work or having a bad attitude. I have been like that before, but I guess what I have to realise is that even if I get the job I haven't 'made it' yet, I've just given myself an opportunity.
The job is something that i would like to do long term. I would like to commit myself to it and not act as if I am doing them a favour by turning up- which is something that I do to cover up my nerves.
In some ways it is as if I can feel a change waiting to happen in me. I'm sure that my current job is a big factor in my depression and anxiety- it's hard, physical work from 2-10 pm most evenings and at weekends too, which makes me feel exhausted and that I'm missing out on social activities. it will be a huge weight off my shoulders when I do eventually leave and I'd feel so much more relaxed and inspired if i could get the job I have gone for.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.