claire47
21-03-11, 15:50
Hello Everyone,
Firstly, this is my first post here so " Hello!:)"
My name is Claire and I am 18 years old. I have GAD and Social Anxiety Disorder. I currently work in a supermarket which is always really hard for me as I find large social situations ( especially with strangers) difficult.
I have had a few days off in the past due to my anxiety but usually force myself in as to not make my avoidance worse.
Recently, I have been really struggling. I have had my medication changed a few times and It's been a tough few months. At the weekend, just there, my manager pulled me into the office and told me that I always mope around and do not do my job properly.
I feel this is not the case, there is the odd occasion where I don't perform like I should but this is realated to my anxiety- which he is fully aware of. Furthermore, I feel as though I have worked as hard as I can.
He took me into the office to chat about my performance and I got very upset. I'm always on edge and excessively anxious so I was teary. He then told me that I don't do my job properly, he started the converstation with " I'm going to be blunt with you". And he lost his temper quite quickly and spoke to me in a horrible manner. He doesn't understand how it feels. I try my best at work I really do. My anxiety eats me alive.
This made me feel very isolated and that all the progress I've made in terms of my mental health has been for nothing. I felt worthless and unappreciated. I understand that he has a department to run but I feel that he is out of order doing this to me.
As a consequence of his unprofessionalism and lack of understanding, I requested that I go home - of course not getting paid to be off ill. I got to my car and had an anxiety attack. My mother came to collect me and I've been in my house ever since. I've had another attack since then just thinking about it, I really do not know what to do. I'm even scared to leave the house at the moment, just incase I have an attack.
I'm so fed up. I don't know what to do. I feel like he has put me back to sqaure one. I'm going to be short of cash at the end of the month and I've had to skip University today.
Help?
Firstly, this is my first post here so " Hello!:)"
My name is Claire and I am 18 years old. I have GAD and Social Anxiety Disorder. I currently work in a supermarket which is always really hard for me as I find large social situations ( especially with strangers) difficult.
I have had a few days off in the past due to my anxiety but usually force myself in as to not make my avoidance worse.
Recently, I have been really struggling. I have had my medication changed a few times and It's been a tough few months. At the weekend, just there, my manager pulled me into the office and told me that I always mope around and do not do my job properly.
I feel this is not the case, there is the odd occasion where I don't perform like I should but this is realated to my anxiety- which he is fully aware of. Furthermore, I feel as though I have worked as hard as I can.
He took me into the office to chat about my performance and I got very upset. I'm always on edge and excessively anxious so I was teary. He then told me that I don't do my job properly, he started the converstation with " I'm going to be blunt with you". And he lost his temper quite quickly and spoke to me in a horrible manner. He doesn't understand how it feels. I try my best at work I really do. My anxiety eats me alive.
This made me feel very isolated and that all the progress I've made in terms of my mental health has been for nothing. I felt worthless and unappreciated. I understand that he has a department to run but I feel that he is out of order doing this to me.
As a consequence of his unprofessionalism and lack of understanding, I requested that I go home - of course not getting paid to be off ill. I got to my car and had an anxiety attack. My mother came to collect me and I've been in my house ever since. I've had another attack since then just thinking about it, I really do not know what to do. I'm even scared to leave the house at the moment, just incase I have an attack.
I'm so fed up. I don't know what to do. I feel like he has put me back to sqaure one. I'm going to be short of cash at the end of the month and I've had to skip University today.
Help?