LoneRider
22-03-11, 10:44
Well hoping this site will be helpful for me ... I'm still in the early stages of see docs and knowing whats wrong with me but I believe I suffer from anxiety and varying depression.
I have suffered from it on and off my 1st realisation was about 10 yrs ago where I lost my job and nearly family etc but managed to get control and back on track through hypnotherapy and self help.
Since then I've had mild attacks of the symptoms but again managed to get through and cope with everyday life...
Till now ... I changed jobs to be closer to home but have not managed to settle properly its coming up for 6 months and been suffering for a few months with anxiety trying to get to work, not feeling settled while at work and lack of attention, motivation to complete easy tasks etc, oh and just tired in everything I do, I've been with muscle ache and pain (although think my back needs attention anyway) very tense in shoulders and feeling sick.
I have been taking rescue remedy to get me to work in the mornings which has just been taking the edge off my feelings and getting me to work and the muscle ache stopped for a while and felt like I was getting a little more positive, also I have been using up holiday and having short 4 day weeks.
Not sure if this related to anxiety etc but last week I woke up on Monday with cramp/pulled muscle feeling in my right leg (thought maybe I'd got bad cramp in the night or something) but this stayed with me all week and spread all up my right side from ankle to head but I had no thought as to how or why although I was not feeling the need to take the rescue remedy? This week so far I'd still got twenges on my right side and a general tightness through shoulders and back, headache and a general feeling of wanting to be sick esp on first waking and knowing i need to get up and go to work.
Sometimes I feel maybe I'm just making it all up and should get on with it and just cope and others I just want to switch off.
Not even sure all this is relevant or making sense??
I'm going back to my doctor today, half of me just wants to not have to try to get through the day and go to work etc but then the other half of me is worried that will make everything worse.
My boss is aware of how I am feeling etc but obviously wants me at work and being productive - then I just worry I'm going to loose my job with how I'm feeling.
It seems to be centred all around work but also things like housework and chores I just generally struggle in completing and doing things alone I tend to get my other half to escort me.
Sorry for the massive blurt out of everything :unsure:
I have suffered from it on and off my 1st realisation was about 10 yrs ago where I lost my job and nearly family etc but managed to get control and back on track through hypnotherapy and self help.
Since then I've had mild attacks of the symptoms but again managed to get through and cope with everyday life...
Till now ... I changed jobs to be closer to home but have not managed to settle properly its coming up for 6 months and been suffering for a few months with anxiety trying to get to work, not feeling settled while at work and lack of attention, motivation to complete easy tasks etc, oh and just tired in everything I do, I've been with muscle ache and pain (although think my back needs attention anyway) very tense in shoulders and feeling sick.
I have been taking rescue remedy to get me to work in the mornings which has just been taking the edge off my feelings and getting me to work and the muscle ache stopped for a while and felt like I was getting a little more positive, also I have been using up holiday and having short 4 day weeks.
Not sure if this related to anxiety etc but last week I woke up on Monday with cramp/pulled muscle feeling in my right leg (thought maybe I'd got bad cramp in the night or something) but this stayed with me all week and spread all up my right side from ankle to head but I had no thought as to how or why although I was not feeling the need to take the rescue remedy? This week so far I'd still got twenges on my right side and a general tightness through shoulders and back, headache and a general feeling of wanting to be sick esp on first waking and knowing i need to get up and go to work.
Sometimes I feel maybe I'm just making it all up and should get on with it and just cope and others I just want to switch off.
Not even sure all this is relevant or making sense??
I'm going back to my doctor today, half of me just wants to not have to try to get through the day and go to work etc but then the other half of me is worried that will make everything worse.
My boss is aware of how I am feeling etc but obviously wants me at work and being productive - then I just worry I'm going to loose my job with how I'm feeling.
It seems to be centred all around work but also things like housework and chores I just generally struggle in completing and doing things alone I tend to get my other half to escort me.
Sorry for the massive blurt out of everything :unsure: