daydreamer
23-03-11, 20:59
Hey.
Been suffering with bad anxiety for just over a year now. Last yr I was able to cope with the anxiety almost because with that anxiety I still had hope. Ive had what I thought was depersonalization since new yr 2011, but now Im not sure if its some type of depression or something because I feel hopeless? I seem to want to burst into tears all the time, although I manage to stop myself.
Im so sensitive to all the bad stuff thats happening in the world and sometimes cannot watch or hear the news because of it. I get scared when I hear a police siren, it automatically makes me think of something bad happening to one of my family members in particular my parents.
The derealization makes me stare into space half the time, constant thoughts of things just not looking right therefore something bad must be happenning?! Its much worse in grey hazy or bright sunny weather and when its bad it just makes me want to stay inside and hide with the curtains closed. Its a chore to get myself to go for a daily walk or to the shops but I force myself. Im feeling hopeless basically.
Last yr I had therapy and became hopeful, but as time goes by Im feeling more and more hopeless. So is this depression? I used to wake in the mornings feeling hopeful, now I dread getting up. I dont sleep or eat excessively or anything like the symptoms of depression Ive read about, but I just have this awful feeling that something bad will happen. I feel sad, I want to cry.
Bad things are happening all the time and I feel like im tuned into them, kinda makes me feel like Im going a bit mad.......... am I? I look at everyone and think that deep down they must feel like I do too, but they are still smiling and acting normally?! So rationally I know that they dont feel like I do, its all in my head. Why wouldn't you feel like this when so many bad things are happening?! Is it just me thats thinking these thoughts cause of anxiety/depression? Ive tried everything to pull myself out of this rut, I feel awful to be fair and feel like Im not far from losing it! So what can help, if anything?
Been suffering with bad anxiety for just over a year now. Last yr I was able to cope with the anxiety almost because with that anxiety I still had hope. Ive had what I thought was depersonalization since new yr 2011, but now Im not sure if its some type of depression or something because I feel hopeless? I seem to want to burst into tears all the time, although I manage to stop myself.
Im so sensitive to all the bad stuff thats happening in the world and sometimes cannot watch or hear the news because of it. I get scared when I hear a police siren, it automatically makes me think of something bad happening to one of my family members in particular my parents.
The derealization makes me stare into space half the time, constant thoughts of things just not looking right therefore something bad must be happenning?! Its much worse in grey hazy or bright sunny weather and when its bad it just makes me want to stay inside and hide with the curtains closed. Its a chore to get myself to go for a daily walk or to the shops but I force myself. Im feeling hopeless basically.
Last yr I had therapy and became hopeful, but as time goes by Im feeling more and more hopeless. So is this depression? I used to wake in the mornings feeling hopeful, now I dread getting up. I dont sleep or eat excessively or anything like the symptoms of depression Ive read about, but I just have this awful feeling that something bad will happen. I feel sad, I want to cry.
Bad things are happening all the time and I feel like im tuned into them, kinda makes me feel like Im going a bit mad.......... am I? I look at everyone and think that deep down they must feel like I do too, but they are still smiling and acting normally?! So rationally I know that they dont feel like I do, its all in my head. Why wouldn't you feel like this when so many bad things are happening?! Is it just me thats thinking these thoughts cause of anxiety/depression? Ive tried everything to pull myself out of this rut, I feel awful to be fair and feel like Im not far from losing it! So what can help, if anything?