scottishcantona
24-03-11, 16:35
39 year old male scared of shopping, I wouldnt be the first man afraid of Tesco. Today I went shopping for food, 10 days into my new prescription for citalopram, I took my 4yr old daughter after nursery shopping with me on the basis I would distract myself and not run away because I would need to look after her.
Like a little lamb she held my hand all the way around, I sweated, I shook, sometimes I felt like running away but I eventually got to the checkout.
Shaking and sweating my daughter helped me to put stuff on the conveyor belt and then she helped me throw it all in the trolley. Still shaking, sweating and going bright red in the face I paid for the shopping, thanked the cashier and started to leave with my beautiful 4yr helper.
On the way out a man much younger than myself jumped out in front of my trolley and proceeded to start trying to sell me something. Like a rabbit in headlights it took me a few seconds to respond.
Before I could my 4yr old pushed the trolley into the salesmans legs and I said please move and no thank you.
We went to the car and put the shopping away and I could have cried, not because I was upset but that I had done my shopping and if there's a god, thank you very much for my 4yr old daughter because she didnt know, but in so many ways she helped her dad today and even though I will have rough days coming up I shall remember how my 4yr old helped me overcome my anxiety and panic this day and I will recover and I promise to give her a day in the future that will be the best day ever for her because she deserves it.
It is now later in the day and my anxiety is kicking in a touch but I know Im on the right road and I hope every single one of you out there that is suffering with anxiety and panic can relate to the relief I felt that with support I made it in and out of tesco and I am still alive !!:yahoo:
Like a little lamb she held my hand all the way around, I sweated, I shook, sometimes I felt like running away but I eventually got to the checkout.
Shaking and sweating my daughter helped me to put stuff on the conveyor belt and then she helped me throw it all in the trolley. Still shaking, sweating and going bright red in the face I paid for the shopping, thanked the cashier and started to leave with my beautiful 4yr helper.
On the way out a man much younger than myself jumped out in front of my trolley and proceeded to start trying to sell me something. Like a rabbit in headlights it took me a few seconds to respond.
Before I could my 4yr old pushed the trolley into the salesmans legs and I said please move and no thank you.
We went to the car and put the shopping away and I could have cried, not because I was upset but that I had done my shopping and if there's a god, thank you very much for my 4yr old daughter because she didnt know, but in so many ways she helped her dad today and even though I will have rough days coming up I shall remember how my 4yr old helped me overcome my anxiety and panic this day and I will recover and I promise to give her a day in the future that will be the best day ever for her because she deserves it.
It is now later in the day and my anxiety is kicking in a touch but I know Im on the right road and I hope every single one of you out there that is suffering with anxiety and panic can relate to the relief I felt that with support I made it in and out of tesco and I am still alive !!:yahoo: