Who Am I Sometimes

[jodi78148]

Hi,
I am a new member and I have never done anything on a site like this before. I have been suffering from anxiety for about 6 years. One day I had a panic attack and since then I have been a off and on anxiety sufferer. My question for anyone is about how I remember myself after anxiety episodes. I will go months with nothing and then months were I sufer. When I have anxiety its like I am walking around in a daze for months at a time. If I look back at myself threw my anxiety months I don't even recognize myself. Doe sthat make since? Its like I am someone i don't know for the time. It is so scary to me. Its almost liek I go crazy for awhile. It really effects everything in my life. My doctors put me on Paxil for a while and I will never take that again[V]. It made me emotionless. I hate that I have to deal with this and man does it take a strong person to take this in life. Can anyone relate? This site is a great comfort. Thanks all.
Jodi

[Alexandra]

Hi Jodie

Welcome to the forum.

You will find lots of help & advice on here.

I have been in the same boat as you re a dazed feeling but it will pass. If you think the tablets are not doing you any good re side affects have a word with the doc perhaps & see if they can recommend anything else for you. I found Fluxotine made me completely spaced out so i change to citolopram & touch wood have been fine.


Take Care



Alex

Many People Will Walk
In & Out Of Your Life
But Only True Friends
Will Leave Footprints
In Your Heart

[kimmy]

hey there Jodi

I can relate, when I have anxiety bad. I feel like im in a ball and everything passes me by but when its gone I just cant believe how i felt at that time! Its weird ah?

[jodi78148]

Thanks for the replies so far. Its nice to know that people relate to me. As far as medicine goes right now I am on nothing because I am pregnant and I didn't want anything to effect my baby. Its hard to live with nothing but I only have 2 1/2 months left. Before that I was on Prozac and larazapam which work alot better than Paxil. Kimmy it is weird looking back and wondering who I was at the time. I wonder with as many anxiety spells as I have if I'm ever myself. Or who is myself. I am still trying to figure out who I am because of anxiety. I wanted to respond, hopefully i did this right. I'm still not sure as to how to use the site but I want to reply to everyone who shares there stories to help me. It really means alot. Thanks all.
Jodi

[Karen]

Hi Jodi

What you say makes perfect sense and you are not going mad or crazy.

This sounds like depersonalisation/derealisation which affects a lot of us when acute and then settles as the acute phase passes.

Have a read of some of these previous posts which might help:


D/Personalisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2304)
derealisation/depersonlisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2512)
Hi new member mom w/ panic and dp/dr (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1239)
Disassociation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2732)
when will this feeling leave? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2971)
FEELING SPACED! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4079)
?Derealisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4682)
My mind and depersonalisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5345)
Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5523)
Surreal, Unreal, Spaced-Out, Derealization etc (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5569)
Weird Feelings in Mind (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5622)
Feel Weird and Confused (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5833)
Is this Depersonlization or something worse? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6009)
Anyone got any positive feedback on DP/DR? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6044)
PMT, tiredness, and feeling of unreality (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6670)
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Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7230)
Terrifying Depersonalization/Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7436)



Karen



Happiness is not a state to arrive at but a manner of travelling.

You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough ~ Christine Cagney, Cagney & Lacey

[kimmy]

I think this site is good for realising your not alon and the symptoms your feeling are what we all have experience. This can be reassuring to you I hope, becaue like I said beofre I felt exactly the same as you. But with some gentle incouragement I have become less anxious after time.