HelenLouise
26-03-11, 23:38
Hey everyone!
I am so annoyed with myself for falling victim to Dr google again!
I have OCD and ever since someone i knew from school's mum died from Leukemia, I have been obsessed with cancer.
It started out with me researching leukemia and finding out that swollen glands can be a symptom - which lead to me freaking out because I have had gland on the side of my neck since I was 3 (I'm now 20)!! I was prodding around a lot and noticed i could also feel two other smaller glands in my neck. This happened about 9 months ago and i ended up googling so much i convinced myself I had lymphoma. I saw my GP who suggested bloods as i was so nervous. My bloods showed a slight infection so my GP suggested a biopsy on the largest node but said he doubted very much it was cancer because I have had it for 17 years.
Anyway - I went to the hospital for my pre-op and the surgeon basically said he didn't think it was anything as it was there pretty much all my life and i had also tested positive for glandular fever so that could have been the infection. He said he would remove the node for peace of mind but i was scared of the aneasthetic so didn't have it done.
I forgot about that worry and moved on to other types of cancer; stomach, ovarian, cervical etc but now, 9 months on I am worried that I do have lymphoma and it has been there for ages. My nodes are all small, apart from the one i have had all my life, which is about the size of a marble and they are moveable and have not increased in size at all!
Do you think its just my health anxiety/ocd playing up or should i be worried.
I'd know by now if i'd had cancer for 17 years right?
Sorry for the long post and if you read this far, thanks for listening :) xxx
I am so annoyed with myself for falling victim to Dr google again!
I have OCD and ever since someone i knew from school's mum died from Leukemia, I have been obsessed with cancer.
It started out with me researching leukemia and finding out that swollen glands can be a symptom - which lead to me freaking out because I have had gland on the side of my neck since I was 3 (I'm now 20)!! I was prodding around a lot and noticed i could also feel two other smaller glands in my neck. This happened about 9 months ago and i ended up googling so much i convinced myself I had lymphoma. I saw my GP who suggested bloods as i was so nervous. My bloods showed a slight infection so my GP suggested a biopsy on the largest node but said he doubted very much it was cancer because I have had it for 17 years.
Anyway - I went to the hospital for my pre-op and the surgeon basically said he didn't think it was anything as it was there pretty much all my life and i had also tested positive for glandular fever so that could have been the infection. He said he would remove the node for peace of mind but i was scared of the aneasthetic so didn't have it done.
I forgot about that worry and moved on to other types of cancer; stomach, ovarian, cervical etc but now, 9 months on I am worried that I do have lymphoma and it has been there for ages. My nodes are all small, apart from the one i have had all my life, which is about the size of a marble and they are moveable and have not increased in size at all!
Do you think its just my health anxiety/ocd playing up or should i be worried.
I'd know by now if i'd had cancer for 17 years right?
Sorry for the long post and if you read this far, thanks for listening :) xxx