phil06
27-03-11, 19:11
Over the months I've avoided lots of places due to becoming a touch agoraphobic and when i revisit it after a while and stuff changed it all seems kind of strange. It sends me back to these thoughts like I never survived a panic attack I got last May. It's really stuck in my head this day i was rushed to the doctors and given Diazepam. It's hard to remember how I felt but it was very distant and I've had the depersonalization regular since.
But I think what's going on is depersonalization "numbs" up and "sensitizes the world" I feel like I am missing out not being able to go further than round the block but luckily it's getting better. I find it quite hard to understand why I even fear it? But I think both depression and depersonalization can create a "numb" block emotionally which makes life quite a off place?
I notice that when I am out drinking I don't and can't feel DP as it relaxes me which is great. Atleast I know these sensations must be anxiety related. :huh:
But I think what's going on is depersonalization "numbs" up and "sensitizes the world" I feel like I am missing out not being able to go further than round the block but luckily it's getting better. I find it quite hard to understand why I even fear it? But I think both depression and depersonalization can create a "numb" block emotionally which makes life quite a off place?
I notice that when I am out drinking I don't and can't feel DP as it relaxes me which is great. Atleast I know these sensations must be anxiety related. :huh: