sharoncjb
09-04-06, 11:52
Hi I've been posting recently about my throat thing and believe it or not with the help of half a diazepam twice a day for five days I actually was feeling much better, I certainly wouldn't say that it was all gone again, but I was eating again and I wasn't spending every waking moment worrying about my throat and various other symptoms that were happening.
I have been to the doctor and I suffer with what feels like a lumpy throat full of mucus and yuk but can't never seem to clear it, I also feel that the very back of my tongue gets sore and that it has something on it where it goes down in my throat and that I am blocked behind my nose. I have been like this in the past and am frequently like it around this time of year and later in the Spring so maybe I have some form of allergy but knowing that I can never just have simple colds etc or any form of allergy of course I have to have something terminal which I'm sure many of you understand, although why this is I don't know.
Well then a couple of evenings ago I picked up a leaflet about a cancer charity and when I know I shouldn't really I read it, and there was a cancer mentioned called nasopharyngeal cancer, and low and behold I have a good look around the internet, and have now decided that this must be what I have. Yet again we're going back to square 1 extremely quickly because I feel the old feelings of the thing stuck on the very back of my tongue, I guess as I am focusing all my thoughts and energies on it it's going to be there. I am managing to convince myself that I have all these symptoms and that I haven't told the doctor properly about the symptoms I am feeling or more so that maybe he just wasn't listening and they blame everything on anxiety. I know it's sad but I just can't get it out of my head now and things had been going so well. Maybe I have stopped taking my medication too soon but I am going out next week and want to be able to go out and enjoy myself, and cannot have a drink or two if I'm taking tablets.
To think I was absolutely fine four weeks ago, all this stressing over my throat, tongue etc was brought on by a bad throat infection which has long since gone and left me like this again.
Please help and tell me that I am being silly. My partner was absolutely furious with me for even looking up this on the internet and whilst I understand his feelings, I think you have to suffer from this before you can even begin to understand what its like. I have spent years of having various types and forms of terminal illnesses and it really does take over I just wish it would GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK!!!!
Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings and please if you feel you can help reply to me and at least try to put my mind at rest.
Thanks
Sharon
I have been to the doctor and I suffer with what feels like a lumpy throat full of mucus and yuk but can't never seem to clear it, I also feel that the very back of my tongue gets sore and that it has something on it where it goes down in my throat and that I am blocked behind my nose. I have been like this in the past and am frequently like it around this time of year and later in the Spring so maybe I have some form of allergy but knowing that I can never just have simple colds etc or any form of allergy of course I have to have something terminal which I'm sure many of you understand, although why this is I don't know.
Well then a couple of evenings ago I picked up a leaflet about a cancer charity and when I know I shouldn't really I read it, and there was a cancer mentioned called nasopharyngeal cancer, and low and behold I have a good look around the internet, and have now decided that this must be what I have. Yet again we're going back to square 1 extremely quickly because I feel the old feelings of the thing stuck on the very back of my tongue, I guess as I am focusing all my thoughts and energies on it it's going to be there. I am managing to convince myself that I have all these symptoms and that I haven't told the doctor properly about the symptoms I am feeling or more so that maybe he just wasn't listening and they blame everything on anxiety. I know it's sad but I just can't get it out of my head now and things had been going so well. Maybe I have stopped taking my medication too soon but I am going out next week and want to be able to go out and enjoy myself, and cannot have a drink or two if I'm taking tablets.
To think I was absolutely fine four weeks ago, all this stressing over my throat, tongue etc was brought on by a bad throat infection which has long since gone and left me like this again.
Please help and tell me that I am being silly. My partner was absolutely furious with me for even looking up this on the internet and whilst I understand his feelings, I think you have to suffer from this before you can even begin to understand what its like. I have spent years of having various types and forms of terminal illnesses and it really does take over I just wish it would GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK!!!!
Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings and please if you feel you can help reply to me and at least try to put my mind at rest.
Thanks
Sharon