phil06
29-03-11, 15:01
There's two symptoms that I am really struggling to get over at the moment:
Depersonalization/Derealization:
I can't seem to get rid of it every day I feel unreal, disconnected, feel I'm not communicating also find it catches onto false memories or worse images of what it actually is like a panic attack felt like I never survived. I find even going out doesn't give me relief I think because I feel it anywhere I go..I don't get a break from it. I find it makes my mind blank, I keep searching for answers. I look in the mirror seem foreign, places I visited seem strange and what's worse is
when I've been bad I avoid places..like mild Agoraphobia so my local bus station I visited the other day as I had to go out It felt weird as a few things had changed but more so because I had avoided it so long. I don't feel alive at times from it.
Some days I really do feel in a dream I'm doing stuff but from my head to my eyes to everywhere I look it's dull dreamy, distant.
I've had all sorts of physical symptoms like sore eyes, floaters, blurry eyes, fatigue, disturbed sleep from this symptom, I can lie in bed and feel my breathing has stopped or so it feels and I like jump up because I feel frozen for a second, and aches pains the usual anxiety stuff.
A few months back maybe 5/6 months ago I woke up and accepted my surroundings, I no longer felt in a cloud and went to work that day for a week feeling normal..then I went back to driving lessons and it got worse again.
Some people say sunlight is bad I no longer fear that..sometimes my panic attacks come at night. I have experienced the symptom where you walk into a place and you are hit by light and it's like a pressure rush..
But anyway I could go on all day about it..I feel I've tired to accept it but can't..it's lasted 10 months any ideas how I can get rid of it after this length of time?
My other issue is:
Bowels/Toilet problems/Diarrhea:
I find it embarrassing as I always get diarrhea and feel incomplete..sometimes I get stomach cramps and I go and it's the tiniest bit that comes out. I hate leaving the house feeling I'm going to get incontinent or something. Sometimes I can get a day where the diarrhea is particularly bad and I'm sat for ages. I'm quite fussy so changing my diet has been a challenge but I have been going for walks daily.
But both symptoms make me fear leaving home. A positive is I have been going out more lately..but I still feel I can't cope with these symptoms..and it comes with OCD, Depression, panic all these other symptoms but these two are the ones really cramping my life. There's been times I feel I'm suffering in silence and sometimes I try and put it into words.
People say anxiety is harmless but I now realise it can affect people in bad ways they don't want to go out. I feel my brain just can't accept it's anxiety at times which is annoying..anybody else got any advice? Basically after losing my job I don't feel I can be bothered working again, I want a g.f but duno how I can go out and cope with life and I just want to live my life in my bedroom as it's safer that way. Why when it got better am I back here again? :unsure:
Depersonalization/Derealization:
I can't seem to get rid of it every day I feel unreal, disconnected, feel I'm not communicating also find it catches onto false memories or worse images of what it actually is like a panic attack felt like I never survived. I find even going out doesn't give me relief I think because I feel it anywhere I go..I don't get a break from it. I find it makes my mind blank, I keep searching for answers. I look in the mirror seem foreign, places I visited seem strange and what's worse is
when I've been bad I avoid places..like mild Agoraphobia so my local bus station I visited the other day as I had to go out It felt weird as a few things had changed but more so because I had avoided it so long. I don't feel alive at times from it.
Some days I really do feel in a dream I'm doing stuff but from my head to my eyes to everywhere I look it's dull dreamy, distant.
I've had all sorts of physical symptoms like sore eyes, floaters, blurry eyes, fatigue, disturbed sleep from this symptom, I can lie in bed and feel my breathing has stopped or so it feels and I like jump up because I feel frozen for a second, and aches pains the usual anxiety stuff.
A few months back maybe 5/6 months ago I woke up and accepted my surroundings, I no longer felt in a cloud and went to work that day for a week feeling normal..then I went back to driving lessons and it got worse again.
Some people say sunlight is bad I no longer fear that..sometimes my panic attacks come at night. I have experienced the symptom where you walk into a place and you are hit by light and it's like a pressure rush..
But anyway I could go on all day about it..I feel I've tired to accept it but can't..it's lasted 10 months any ideas how I can get rid of it after this length of time?
My other issue is:
Bowels/Toilet problems/Diarrhea:
I find it embarrassing as I always get diarrhea and feel incomplete..sometimes I get stomach cramps and I go and it's the tiniest bit that comes out. I hate leaving the house feeling I'm going to get incontinent or something. Sometimes I can get a day where the diarrhea is particularly bad and I'm sat for ages. I'm quite fussy so changing my diet has been a challenge but I have been going for walks daily.
But both symptoms make me fear leaving home. A positive is I have been going out more lately..but I still feel I can't cope with these symptoms..and it comes with OCD, Depression, panic all these other symptoms but these two are the ones really cramping my life. There's been times I feel I'm suffering in silence and sometimes I try and put it into words.
People say anxiety is harmless but I now realise it can affect people in bad ways they don't want to go out. I feel my brain just can't accept it's anxiety at times which is annoying..anybody else got any advice? Basically after losing my job I don't feel I can be bothered working again, I want a g.f but duno how I can go out and cope with life and I just want to live my life in my bedroom as it's safer that way. Why when it got better am I back here again? :unsure: