Jemlou
31-03-11, 10:28
I am suffered from anxiety since i was about 16 (now 25) it has reared its ugly head in a number of ways over the years, it started with feeling sick ALL the time, i was off college for months then managed to get it under control - although i wouldnt say it ever went away but i could manage/control it. I have also at one point developed the shakes which lasted about 4 months and then went away. I also suffer slightly with health anxiety (at the moment i have an obsession with a tickling feeling in my throat and a little red bumb - which the doctor assures me is just anxiety related)
anyway recently the nausea has been really bad and this has resulted in me feeling i cant cope and having a bit of a breakdown about it. I went to the doctors and he put me back on cit (i was orginally put on it last novemeber but only took one tAblet due to it making me sick - the nausea on top of the nasuea side effects pushed me over the edge i think. So now im back on cit (day 7) and i'm doing ok only 10mg as i was scared of the sickness effect, also on diazepam (just until i settle on the cit and dcotor made it clear it would be a one off prescription) and anti nausea meds.
I have felt better than i did but i still feel a bit sicky when i think about it (i know i shouldnt think about it but easier said than done) and the irritation in my throat causes me to think about it.
SOOOOOOOOOOO today me and my bf of 2 years (who i love very much and we are happy) get the keys to our new flat (both living with our parents at the mo) we are moving in over the weekend and altho i am exicted and i genuinly am, i am also worried what if i dont cope!!! What if i turn into even more of a mess! I dont enjoy doing things like i use to, id rather stay in than go out etc and im sure this doesnt help me sitting in alone thinking but im worried my bf will get fed up of my insane behaviour! On the other hand maybe i need a change to occupy me etc....
Could just do with some support today xxx thanks for letting me get it all out xx
anyway recently the nausea has been really bad and this has resulted in me feeling i cant cope and having a bit of a breakdown about it. I went to the doctors and he put me back on cit (i was orginally put on it last novemeber but only took one tAblet due to it making me sick - the nausea on top of the nasuea side effects pushed me over the edge i think. So now im back on cit (day 7) and i'm doing ok only 10mg as i was scared of the sickness effect, also on diazepam (just until i settle on the cit and dcotor made it clear it would be a one off prescription) and anti nausea meds.
I have felt better than i did but i still feel a bit sicky when i think about it (i know i shouldnt think about it but easier said than done) and the irritation in my throat causes me to think about it.
SOOOOOOOOOOO today me and my bf of 2 years (who i love very much and we are happy) get the keys to our new flat (both living with our parents at the mo) we are moving in over the weekend and altho i am exicted and i genuinly am, i am also worried what if i dont cope!!! What if i turn into even more of a mess! I dont enjoy doing things like i use to, id rather stay in than go out etc and im sure this doesnt help me sitting in alone thinking but im worried my bf will get fed up of my insane behaviour! On the other hand maybe i need a change to occupy me etc....
Could just do with some support today xxx thanks for letting me get it all out xx