flamarella
01-04-11, 23:48
i dont understand how it happends but sometimes my anxiety just slows down and i dont think to much about being sick but lately it has been driving be crazy. First i think i have hiv now i found a swollen lymph node in my coller bone and i think its lymphoma or aids. i dont feel bad i feel fine. sometimes i get that tired feeling and i feel kinda bruised all over. i dont know what to do. my frinds tell me to relax and stop touching myself for bumps because im going to find something all the time to worry about. i just wish that i can be care free, worry free and live life without fear. the fact that we are all going to die is inevitable why am i worried about it??? but i cant help it im so tired all i do is cry and think ... what if this symptom and that symptom is linked to this and what if this and what if that.. i just wanna turn my brain off