hello
02-04-11, 02:25
Hello
I am in my late twenties, i have been having recurring panic attacks for about the last 8 years or so, i have not been to the doctors yet ... haha.
I had had a part time job for 11 years that i had to leave recently due to my company wanting to relocate me, i could not handle the change due to my panic attacks so i had to leave.
My symptoms are usually hypertension so i cant walk properly sometimes, not being able to relate to things during the attacks - like being in a bubble, wanting to flee and what i hate the most - shaking, sometimes quite violently.
I have a very bad memory and at work did the same work more than once lots of times - nobody noticed this though i dont think. Sometimes i could not pick up mugs infront of unusual people on breaks without spilling tea - i did put my hand under water from the boiler when washing out my mug once when i was feeling anxious not on purpose - just not relating to the fact that the water was well boiling hot. Other than that time i havent put myself or anyone in danger.
So now i don't have a job - i live with my dad and was giving him money each week i sold my tv for cash and am going to have to start selling other things to give him money - he is not really poor or anything just i cant live off him like a leech.
I cant handle going for intervews for jobs - i havent been to the dentist iin ages and have holes in my teeth - i also avoided going to the doctor when i had stomach pain and was passing blood and loosing weight - that passed on its own though after a year of worrying - thank god.
Would i be able to get E.S.A ? i had a look some questions and like the mobility ones - i can walk fine normally, i cant walk one yard further though at the biggest point of a panic attack though - just run 100m in 8 seconds to get back home - joke
Could i get financial support even though i live with my dad ? i cant get a job and am quickly running out of money.
Thanks for reading and any help would be great !
I am in my late twenties, i have been having recurring panic attacks for about the last 8 years or so, i have not been to the doctors yet ... haha.
I had had a part time job for 11 years that i had to leave recently due to my company wanting to relocate me, i could not handle the change due to my panic attacks so i had to leave.
My symptoms are usually hypertension so i cant walk properly sometimes, not being able to relate to things during the attacks - like being in a bubble, wanting to flee and what i hate the most - shaking, sometimes quite violently.
I have a very bad memory and at work did the same work more than once lots of times - nobody noticed this though i dont think. Sometimes i could not pick up mugs infront of unusual people on breaks without spilling tea - i did put my hand under water from the boiler when washing out my mug once when i was feeling anxious not on purpose - just not relating to the fact that the water was well boiling hot. Other than that time i havent put myself or anyone in danger.
So now i don't have a job - i live with my dad and was giving him money each week i sold my tv for cash and am going to have to start selling other things to give him money - he is not really poor or anything just i cant live off him like a leech.
I cant handle going for intervews for jobs - i havent been to the dentist iin ages and have holes in my teeth - i also avoided going to the doctor when i had stomach pain and was passing blood and loosing weight - that passed on its own though after a year of worrying - thank god.
Would i be able to get E.S.A ? i had a look some questions and like the mobility ones - i can walk fine normally, i cant walk one yard further though at the biggest point of a panic attack though - just run 100m in 8 seconds to get back home - joke
Could i get financial support even though i live with my dad ? i cant get a job and am quickly running out of money.
Thanks for reading and any help would be great !