giantfan
02-04-11, 14:53
Hi All,
I'm new to the forum and seeking some level of sanity to what logic tells me is anxiety, but fear tells me much worse.
This morning was particularly hard when my wife got so stressed by my issues that she was in tears questioning how long she can live like this... So I really need help in figuring out what's going.
First, about 4 weeks ago I went thru a bout where my left side of my face, from my forehead down my cheek to my chin and lips felt numb and 'tinlgy'. I had a terrible spacey feel. Almost like the onset/wake of a migrane. I slept and woke up the next day without issue. Figured I took some robaxacet for the first time and it was a reaction to it.
But then, last Friday, I had the same feeling on the right side of my face, combined with what I thought was a 'wobbly knee' also on my right side. The feeling persisted and went to the ER on Saturday night. Doctor said 'dont think it's a brain tumor so not going to bother with a CAT, but will order an MRI to rule out MS, but likely anxiety the cause'. Of course all I focus on is the 'MS'.
Feeling persisted but moved from right side of face to left side by Sunday. Right leg still felt wobbly.
By Tuesday, I sought an appointment with the same Dr that saw me at Emerg. Just seeing him seemed to make the facial symptoims go away, and he gave me Citalphram (10 mg to start for two weeks). The first two days of the medicine I felt buzzed and up with little/no symptoms.
However, by Thursday the feeling started to return, and I feel this 'tightness/tingling/heaviness' (but NO visible droop or muscle weakness) on my left side of the face. The feeling usually wouldnt be there in the morning when I wake up, or at night when I'm getting ready for bed, but creeps in around mid day and then lasts thru. On Friday at noon I felt it coming on with this tingling and I felt pure dread sweep over me to the point of dizziness. I panicked and of course jumped to google searches trying to find out what is happening and why after an entire week I still have this tingling. Of course you come across 'brain tumor'. And the next thing you know, Im looking for brain tumor survival stats, stats by age group, etc etc. Even to the point of thinking okay it must be a Brain Stem tumor if it's affecting my face (to which the survival rates are incredibly dismal).
Last night went to bed at 1030pm, woke at 1am and stared at clock for 6 hours. Every minute questioning, do I have feeling in my legs? Is my hand tingling? How can I find out if I have a tumor? Should I go back to Emerg and request a CAT scan? I peed like 3 times over night and start to question 'oh they said frequent urination is a sign'. Then left legs felt funny today, and 'has it spread and not affecting that limb too'.
I'm supposed to be going on a vacation with my wife next week (we only get one a year as we're self employed' and I'm living in complete dread, stressing her to tears, and feel like I'm at my wits end...
I'm new to the forum and seeking some level of sanity to what logic tells me is anxiety, but fear tells me much worse.
This morning was particularly hard when my wife got so stressed by my issues that she was in tears questioning how long she can live like this... So I really need help in figuring out what's going.
First, about 4 weeks ago I went thru a bout where my left side of my face, from my forehead down my cheek to my chin and lips felt numb and 'tinlgy'. I had a terrible spacey feel. Almost like the onset/wake of a migrane. I slept and woke up the next day without issue. Figured I took some robaxacet for the first time and it was a reaction to it.
But then, last Friday, I had the same feeling on the right side of my face, combined with what I thought was a 'wobbly knee' also on my right side. The feeling persisted and went to the ER on Saturday night. Doctor said 'dont think it's a brain tumor so not going to bother with a CAT, but will order an MRI to rule out MS, but likely anxiety the cause'. Of course all I focus on is the 'MS'.
Feeling persisted but moved from right side of face to left side by Sunday. Right leg still felt wobbly.
By Tuesday, I sought an appointment with the same Dr that saw me at Emerg. Just seeing him seemed to make the facial symptoims go away, and he gave me Citalphram (10 mg to start for two weeks). The first two days of the medicine I felt buzzed and up with little/no symptoms.
However, by Thursday the feeling started to return, and I feel this 'tightness/tingling/heaviness' (but NO visible droop or muscle weakness) on my left side of the face. The feeling usually wouldnt be there in the morning when I wake up, or at night when I'm getting ready for bed, but creeps in around mid day and then lasts thru. On Friday at noon I felt it coming on with this tingling and I felt pure dread sweep over me to the point of dizziness. I panicked and of course jumped to google searches trying to find out what is happening and why after an entire week I still have this tingling. Of course you come across 'brain tumor'. And the next thing you know, Im looking for brain tumor survival stats, stats by age group, etc etc. Even to the point of thinking okay it must be a Brain Stem tumor if it's affecting my face (to which the survival rates are incredibly dismal).
Last night went to bed at 1030pm, woke at 1am and stared at clock for 6 hours. Every minute questioning, do I have feeling in my legs? Is my hand tingling? How can I find out if I have a tumor? Should I go back to Emerg and request a CAT scan? I peed like 3 times over night and start to question 'oh they said frequent urination is a sign'. Then left legs felt funny today, and 'has it spread and not affecting that limb too'.
I'm supposed to be going on a vacation with my wife next week (we only get one a year as we're self employed' and I'm living in complete dread, stressing her to tears, and feel like I'm at my wits end...