jill
04-04-11, 13:44
Hi all :D:hugs:
Just after some reassurance really, there are some people around me who feel I need to talk to the gp about this symptom.
I HAVE been panic, high anxiety free for a very long time, yeeehaaa, go me, LOL
Each morning I wake up with a hangover feeling, feeling really rough and sickly, if I stay home I can fall asleep at the drop of a hat, haha, mmm, not funny really because this type of sleep DOES NOT help or make me feel any better this has been going on for awhile now. The rough and sickly feeling will get better as the day goes on, sometimes it can go quickly other times it can last a little longer, but up to now, its there every single morning. I go to bed knowing FULL WELL that this symptom CAN go at anytime.
I have even been walking to work and I can feel the symptom lift off, (ohh goodness me, it fascinates me.)
I have had the sleep issue before,(falling asleep a lot, sleep zaps, a feeling of just wanting to sleep, sooo tired the floor looks very inviting, this was along time ago, WELL before I new I had anxiety, ohhhh boy, it was horrible and this went on for a very, very long time. After I joined this great site, I got this sleep issue under control.
This site has helped me sooooo much, I DO KNOW what I am doing when it comes to anxiety, I know what I need to do to help this pass and I know it takes time. There are things going on in my life right now, which I feel, if anyone was going through the same, they would feel some sort of emotion.
I do feel at times, ohhh boy, this is NOT fair, can't I have issues or challenges in my life WITHOUT having the high anxiety symptoms, other people have lots of problems and although they feel something, they don't feel REALLY rubbish each morning.
I do feel that I am what I call, ON OFF the anxiety roundabout. I know full well that a bad mix of circumstances, thought pattens, CAN at times cause anxiety symptoms, but the roundabout effect is caused when the anxiety symptom itself starts to feed on itself, it drags you down because it sooo horrible, it this mode our thought processes go all over the place, so anxiety is feeding on anxiety, Mmm, does this make any sense ?
I am fascinated by anxiety, how it effects how you think, how when in anxiety mode thoughts can feel stuck in your head, how total distraction AWAY from how you feel, can help it go away, mmm, but it is dame hard to totally distract yourself, BUT its possible, hence me being on the on off anxiety roundabout, during the day, I can use my distraction, but I feel, when in sleep mode my mind plays with me with dreams, hence me waking up feeling ohhhh rubbish.
As for my falling asleep during the day and my tiredness, as I said, I had this issue for a very long time, all my life, mmm very strange, long story really, it became apart of me, who I was, (will not go to much into that, not unless someone wants me too) but I feel this is the old me creeping back in, using sleep as a cure of how I feel, trying to get away from how I feel, BUT, I KNOW dame well, this is NOT the way to go, to push through the tiredness and keep going. I am not that person anymore, I have knowledge and knowledge is very helpful, mmm but its blinkin hard work.
I DO have a plan of action to try and stop the roundabout effect on my morning anxiety and that is to break my routine of life, to get away from it all for a few days, as I said there are things going on right now that are adding to my mix, what I call a bad mix, I can at anytime add a good thing to the mix and this WILL change the way I feel.
I am going to sunny Blackpool for a few days, this weekend hail rain or snow, I don't care, the change will do me the world of good. Take my mind off the challenges I have in my life right now. I have learnt many things through this great site and one of them is, I don't have to prove myself to anyone, the most important thing is to prove to myself that this IS anxiety related. I AM doing this when at home it comes AND IT GOES, ohhh goodness me, I CAN FEEL it lift off me, but when I am feeling low, ohhh boy, Mrs anxiety plays with me and ohhhh boy, I know full well, she plays dirty LOL
The one thing I should mention is, I DON'T have fear of panic,( when I say I don't fear panic, Mm of course I do, if I had a pa, I would be scared of course I would ) what I mean is, I don't even think about panic, Mmm well I just did LOL but what I mean is, I know full well that anxiety does not always lead to panic, so when in high anxiety mode, panic does not even get a thought, so its nothing to do with panic, I feel I am just a LITTLE stuck on the morning anxiety roundabout,
I have done this in the past ( gone away for a few days )AND the symptoms have gone, there NOT there, I have also done this and in the past and Mrs anxiety has been there, but this is anxiety for you, she is good at what she does, she plays, but she can play with me as much as she likes, I am going through a rough time right now with both my children with one thing or an other, my emotions ARE MY OWN, I OWN them, I AM in control of how I feel, I just need to show MYSELF, this a little more. Try and break the morning roundabout.
I will, give it a few week then if symptoms persist, go to talk to the gp. I do know that when my anxiety levels rise, this is when I start doubting myself, NOT thinking I am going to die or anything sinister, more things like thyroids problems something that can be fixed.
Sorry for woffling, Mmm still feeling a little rough at the mo, on the anxiety scale its only a level 1, heheh, go me, thats GREAT :yesyes: even morning it can go up and down, the hightest its been is a level 8 BUT HAY, go me again, at least its not my 10 (full blown panic, my worse)
As I have said anxiety to me is a bad mix, of many things BUT you can change this mix at anytime, BUT knowing just what to do to change things is DAME HARD, it takes a lot of hard work, time and the right support and most of the time even the bad mix that brought you to anxiety has gone, but what your left with is the roundabout, the horrible anxiety symptoms, which in turn feed your anxiety they drag you down, so anxiety feeds anxiety.
I know that both my symptoms are anxiety related, DO YOU HAVE them. I have been a member on hear for along time, so I know these symptoms ARE on the list. I can enplane them to myself when anxiety is not playing with me.
It would be REALLY helpful if you have had these symptoms to reply to me, SO IF I feel really low and start to doubt myself I can just click on this thread.
HAY, after this weekend I may not need to come back and reassure myself, hehe, this is me, ever the hopeful
I REALLY feel for each and every one of you, my heart goes out to you all:hugs: anxiety is DAME HARD WORK, I myself have felt better for a long time, better than I have EVER been in all my life, SO, I WILL get there again, I KNOW I WILL.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
TAKE CARE
LOVE JILL XXX
Just after some reassurance really, there are some people around me who feel I need to talk to the gp about this symptom.
I HAVE been panic, high anxiety free for a very long time, yeeehaaa, go me, LOL
Each morning I wake up with a hangover feeling, feeling really rough and sickly, if I stay home I can fall asleep at the drop of a hat, haha, mmm, not funny really because this type of sleep DOES NOT help or make me feel any better this has been going on for awhile now. The rough and sickly feeling will get better as the day goes on, sometimes it can go quickly other times it can last a little longer, but up to now, its there every single morning. I go to bed knowing FULL WELL that this symptom CAN go at anytime.
I have even been walking to work and I can feel the symptom lift off, (ohh goodness me, it fascinates me.)
I have had the sleep issue before,(falling asleep a lot, sleep zaps, a feeling of just wanting to sleep, sooo tired the floor looks very inviting, this was along time ago, WELL before I new I had anxiety, ohhhh boy, it was horrible and this went on for a very, very long time. After I joined this great site, I got this sleep issue under control.
This site has helped me sooooo much, I DO KNOW what I am doing when it comes to anxiety, I know what I need to do to help this pass and I know it takes time. There are things going on in my life right now, which I feel, if anyone was going through the same, they would feel some sort of emotion.
I do feel at times, ohhh boy, this is NOT fair, can't I have issues or challenges in my life WITHOUT having the high anxiety symptoms, other people have lots of problems and although they feel something, they don't feel REALLY rubbish each morning.
I do feel that I am what I call, ON OFF the anxiety roundabout. I know full well that a bad mix of circumstances, thought pattens, CAN at times cause anxiety symptoms, but the roundabout effect is caused when the anxiety symptom itself starts to feed on itself, it drags you down because it sooo horrible, it this mode our thought processes go all over the place, so anxiety is feeding on anxiety, Mmm, does this make any sense ?
I am fascinated by anxiety, how it effects how you think, how when in anxiety mode thoughts can feel stuck in your head, how total distraction AWAY from how you feel, can help it go away, mmm, but it is dame hard to totally distract yourself, BUT its possible, hence me being on the on off anxiety roundabout, during the day, I can use my distraction, but I feel, when in sleep mode my mind plays with me with dreams, hence me waking up feeling ohhhh rubbish.
As for my falling asleep during the day and my tiredness, as I said, I had this issue for a very long time, all my life, mmm very strange, long story really, it became apart of me, who I was, (will not go to much into that, not unless someone wants me too) but I feel this is the old me creeping back in, using sleep as a cure of how I feel, trying to get away from how I feel, BUT, I KNOW dame well, this is NOT the way to go, to push through the tiredness and keep going. I am not that person anymore, I have knowledge and knowledge is very helpful, mmm but its blinkin hard work.
I DO have a plan of action to try and stop the roundabout effect on my morning anxiety and that is to break my routine of life, to get away from it all for a few days, as I said there are things going on right now that are adding to my mix, what I call a bad mix, I can at anytime add a good thing to the mix and this WILL change the way I feel.
I am going to sunny Blackpool for a few days, this weekend hail rain or snow, I don't care, the change will do me the world of good. Take my mind off the challenges I have in my life right now. I have learnt many things through this great site and one of them is, I don't have to prove myself to anyone, the most important thing is to prove to myself that this IS anxiety related. I AM doing this when at home it comes AND IT GOES, ohhh goodness me, I CAN FEEL it lift off me, but when I am feeling low, ohhh boy, Mrs anxiety plays with me and ohhhh boy, I know full well, she plays dirty LOL
The one thing I should mention is, I DON'T have fear of panic,( when I say I don't fear panic, Mm of course I do, if I had a pa, I would be scared of course I would ) what I mean is, I don't even think about panic, Mmm well I just did LOL but what I mean is, I know full well that anxiety does not always lead to panic, so when in high anxiety mode, panic does not even get a thought, so its nothing to do with panic, I feel I am just a LITTLE stuck on the morning anxiety roundabout,
I have done this in the past ( gone away for a few days )AND the symptoms have gone, there NOT there, I have also done this and in the past and Mrs anxiety has been there, but this is anxiety for you, she is good at what she does, she plays, but she can play with me as much as she likes, I am going through a rough time right now with both my children with one thing or an other, my emotions ARE MY OWN, I OWN them, I AM in control of how I feel, I just need to show MYSELF, this a little more. Try and break the morning roundabout.
I will, give it a few week then if symptoms persist, go to talk to the gp. I do know that when my anxiety levels rise, this is when I start doubting myself, NOT thinking I am going to die or anything sinister, more things like thyroids problems something that can be fixed.
Sorry for woffling, Mmm still feeling a little rough at the mo, on the anxiety scale its only a level 1, heheh, go me, thats GREAT :yesyes: even morning it can go up and down, the hightest its been is a level 8 BUT HAY, go me again, at least its not my 10 (full blown panic, my worse)
As I have said anxiety to me is a bad mix, of many things BUT you can change this mix at anytime, BUT knowing just what to do to change things is DAME HARD, it takes a lot of hard work, time and the right support and most of the time even the bad mix that brought you to anxiety has gone, but what your left with is the roundabout, the horrible anxiety symptoms, which in turn feed your anxiety they drag you down, so anxiety feeds anxiety.
I know that both my symptoms are anxiety related, DO YOU HAVE them. I have been a member on hear for along time, so I know these symptoms ARE on the list. I can enplane them to myself when anxiety is not playing with me.
It would be REALLY helpful if you have had these symptoms to reply to me, SO IF I feel really low and start to doubt myself I can just click on this thread.
HAY, after this weekend I may not need to come back and reassure myself, hehe, this is me, ever the hopeful
I REALLY feel for each and every one of you, my heart goes out to you all:hugs: anxiety is DAME HARD WORK, I myself have felt better for a long time, better than I have EVER been in all my life, SO, I WILL get there again, I KNOW I WILL.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
TAKE CARE
LOVE JILL XXX