chasel28
06-04-11, 16:52
Hi,
I am 29 years old and have four children. I have suffered from anxiety since my dad died suddenly of a heart attack in 2001. I was the executior of his will 6 months pregnant, arranged his funeral and cleared his house out. I identified his body all at 19 years old.
I have suffered on and off since then. My middle son was born in 2006 and was in special care for 6 weeks as he was 8 weeks early. From this day i have had severe panick attacks and anxiety. The noise of the monitors the waiting the worrying it all took its toll and brough back the anxiety of 2001.
I now so many years on suffer every day, i was told in 2008 that i have the same genetic fault that causes really high cholesterol levels and needed medication. I then sound out i got this from my dad who had his first heart attack at 31, died at 46. I am going insaine. I know my levels are under control but every day i worry about going the same way and dying of a heart attack young. I have hot flushes, sickness, IBS, tingling, dizziness. I feel it will not go away until i actually collapse one day and then its finally happened.
I have tried therapy its no use. I work full time in a office, going to work daily is absolutley hell! i struggle to get through every day.
I know no one that has this or understands one little bit how horrid my life is. I am controlled by my own fear. I bounce from thinking i have cancer to worrying i have an apendicitus. It never stops. I just want to live like a normal mum.
Thanks for reading
Lindsay x
I am 29 years old and have four children. I have suffered from anxiety since my dad died suddenly of a heart attack in 2001. I was the executior of his will 6 months pregnant, arranged his funeral and cleared his house out. I identified his body all at 19 years old.
I have suffered on and off since then. My middle son was born in 2006 and was in special care for 6 weeks as he was 8 weeks early. From this day i have had severe panick attacks and anxiety. The noise of the monitors the waiting the worrying it all took its toll and brough back the anxiety of 2001.
I now so many years on suffer every day, i was told in 2008 that i have the same genetic fault that causes really high cholesterol levels and needed medication. I then sound out i got this from my dad who had his first heart attack at 31, died at 46. I am going insaine. I know my levels are under control but every day i worry about going the same way and dying of a heart attack young. I have hot flushes, sickness, IBS, tingling, dizziness. I feel it will not go away until i actually collapse one day and then its finally happened.
I have tried therapy its no use. I work full time in a office, going to work daily is absolutley hell! i struggle to get through every day.
I know no one that has this or understands one little bit how horrid my life is. I am controlled by my own fear. I bounce from thinking i have cancer to worrying i have an apendicitus. It never stops. I just want to live like a normal mum.
Thanks for reading
Lindsay x