Rhys1879SAFC
08-04-11, 18:28
Hey, sorry it seems that I only come on here when I have a problem.
Basically, last week I was doing really well, almost back to normal really, I felt 95% like my old self. I have managed to get a job sorted out and generally life was far better for me. My anxiety was almost gone, my depresonalisation went away consistently for the first time since mid-February.
Then for some stupid reason, I read up about Psychosis online, I guess I was trying to put myself to the test, to see if I could read up about something like that and come away from it and not worry about it. Well I failed the test miserably. (sorry that was a terrible example).
I am absolutely obsessed with hearing/seeing things that aren't there, even though I haven't had any hallucinations. I'm having thoughts like such as "I'm imagining the whole world around me" and my depersonalisation has come on really strongly again. Whenever something good happens to me like I find an old book I lost a while ago, I'll think "this is too good to be true, so perhaps it isn't?".
Seriously I hate myself for getting too confident that I'd beaten anxiety and now I've relapsed really hard. I'm convinced I'm going to develop Psychosis at some point in my life!
Help me. :weep:
Basically, last week I was doing really well, almost back to normal really, I felt 95% like my old self. I have managed to get a job sorted out and generally life was far better for me. My anxiety was almost gone, my depresonalisation went away consistently for the first time since mid-February.
Then for some stupid reason, I read up about Psychosis online, I guess I was trying to put myself to the test, to see if I could read up about something like that and come away from it and not worry about it. Well I failed the test miserably. (sorry that was a terrible example).
I am absolutely obsessed with hearing/seeing things that aren't there, even though I haven't had any hallucinations. I'm having thoughts like such as "I'm imagining the whole world around me" and my depersonalisation has come on really strongly again. Whenever something good happens to me like I find an old book I lost a while ago, I'll think "this is too good to be true, so perhaps it isn't?".
Seriously I hate myself for getting too confident that I'd beaten anxiety and now I've relapsed really hard. I'm convinced I'm going to develop Psychosis at some point in my life!
Help me. :weep: