JennyGregory5
11-04-11, 19:11
Hi guys,
I feel kind of new to this site. I regulary perused the forum 4 years ago when I was suffering from health anxiety and I can honestly say that this forum helped me through it.
However, now I'm back and with a whole new range of problems. Where to begin...
Last March my dearly loved Gran suffered a stroke and ended up in hospital. This was the beginning. I was heart broken, despite surviving the stroke she wasn't the independent lady she used to be.
Then in April my Dad died, really suddenly. My partner was travelling for work at the time and I tried to tuck away my grief as I was scared with how I'd cope if I didn't.
In July my Gran passed away. Again my boyfriend was travelling and I swallowed my pain in order to organise the funeral and look after my mother.
It didn't occur to anyone that I might be suffering, to be fair I never let anyone see.
For about a month I coped but then I slowly started to break down. I found myself crying at silly things, irritable for no reason and constantly sleepy.
Things have only got worse since then. I cry at least 10 times a day. I am so tired that my arms and legs ache when I walk and that my head feels to fuzzy to think. I cannot concentrate on anything which of course is having a negative impact at work. The criticism I get for doing a bad job only brings me down more. I feel so despertly sad and hopeless. Sometimes I think of ending everything. I'm also struggling with anxiety. As part of my job I have to sit exams, I should start studying for them in 3 weeks but everytime I think of them I feel short of breath, dizzy and faint. This is only getting worse the closer it gets.
I have a doctors appointment on Thursday and I hope for some hope but I do not know what to expect. Do you think I'd be able to ask for some time off work? Or medication or therapy?
Any responses will be appreciated.
Thanks x
D
I feel kind of new to this site. I regulary perused the forum 4 years ago when I was suffering from health anxiety and I can honestly say that this forum helped me through it.
However, now I'm back and with a whole new range of problems. Where to begin...
Last March my dearly loved Gran suffered a stroke and ended up in hospital. This was the beginning. I was heart broken, despite surviving the stroke she wasn't the independent lady she used to be.
Then in April my Dad died, really suddenly. My partner was travelling for work at the time and I tried to tuck away my grief as I was scared with how I'd cope if I didn't.
In July my Gran passed away. Again my boyfriend was travelling and I swallowed my pain in order to organise the funeral and look after my mother.
It didn't occur to anyone that I might be suffering, to be fair I never let anyone see.
For about a month I coped but then I slowly started to break down. I found myself crying at silly things, irritable for no reason and constantly sleepy.
Things have only got worse since then. I cry at least 10 times a day. I am so tired that my arms and legs ache when I walk and that my head feels to fuzzy to think. I cannot concentrate on anything which of course is having a negative impact at work. The criticism I get for doing a bad job only brings me down more. I feel so despertly sad and hopeless. Sometimes I think of ending everything. I'm also struggling with anxiety. As part of my job I have to sit exams, I should start studying for them in 3 weeks but everytime I think of them I feel short of breath, dizzy and faint. This is only getting worse the closer it gets.
I have a doctors appointment on Thursday and I hope for some hope but I do not know what to expect. Do you think I'd be able to ask for some time off work? Or medication or therapy?
Any responses will be appreciated.
Thanks x
D