Ingenious
12-04-11, 18:42
As I posted earlier I am 6 weeks into Mirtazapine as a replacement for Citalopram which I had been on for 6 months and it really was not working. It was failing to stop large swings into depression and was beginning at higher doses to have other unwanted side effects. I seem to be doing a lot better now and dare I say it, starting to feel rather good about life.
Today I did something quite brave for me, I actually went into Sainsburys which I had not done since last year (I've been using home delivery!). Previously I just was not mentally strong enough to face the crowds, the people, the stress, the hassle. Just the thought of it left me feeling like I was being sucked into a hole in the ground.
I even did some clothes shopping there (AT LAST - jeans that fit since I have put weight on, being on Mirtazapine!).
It went OK - a few stressful moments mostly due to OAPs in the aisles like unguided missiles - am so pleased about it. To get my life back to the point where it's "just a supermarket" is so good. I don't think I'd want to do a complete weekly shop yet - baby steps to start with. The best thing was that I can't recall noticing people - normally I'd be anxious and worrying, who is looking at me, do I look like I'm struggling and so on.
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Today I did something quite brave for me, I actually went into Sainsburys which I had not done since last year (I've been using home delivery!). Previously I just was not mentally strong enough to face the crowds, the people, the stress, the hassle. Just the thought of it left me feeling like I was being sucked into a hole in the ground.
I even did some clothes shopping there (AT LAST - jeans that fit since I have put weight on, being on Mirtazapine!).
It went OK - a few stressful moments mostly due to OAPs in the aisles like unguided missiles - am so pleased about it. To get my life back to the point where it's "just a supermarket" is so good. I don't think I'd want to do a complete weekly shop yet - baby steps to start with. The best thing was that I can't recall noticing people - normally I'd be anxious and worrying, who is looking at me, do I look like I'm struggling and so on.
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