LittleMissPanicky
18-04-11, 13:50
Monday 18th April 2011
So this episode of HA has been going on for nearly 5 weeks now so I feel like i need to start putting my rational head on !!! After my initial worries about having some terrible bowel disease ( you know the one !!!) and numerous tests later ( blood tests, sigmoidoscopy, and barium enema ) all too be told everything is clear, why am i still worrying ???? I need to get back to some normality ! The , at the moment, very small rational part of my brain thinks " ok nothing has been found " but that evil part of my brain always throws up the "what ifs ". So I have decided to keep a diary of my thoughts, try to get them down in writing instead of in my head !!!
Todays Worry : put a clean pair of jeans on....hold on they feel quite loose
they weren't like that last week !
Irrational Thought : I'm losing weight too fast, there MUST be something wrong with me ! I now want to go and try on all my jeans to see if they all feel loose !!!!
Rational Thought : After having very little appetite over the past 5 weeks i have bound to have lost weight. I am not going to try my other jeans on (well i did try one pair ! )
Thanks for reading my ramblings, feel free to add yours !!! xxxx:wacko:
So this episode of HA has been going on for nearly 5 weeks now so I feel like i need to start putting my rational head on !!! After my initial worries about having some terrible bowel disease ( you know the one !!!) and numerous tests later ( blood tests, sigmoidoscopy, and barium enema ) all too be told everything is clear, why am i still worrying ???? I need to get back to some normality ! The , at the moment, very small rational part of my brain thinks " ok nothing has been found " but that evil part of my brain always throws up the "what ifs ". So I have decided to keep a diary of my thoughts, try to get them down in writing instead of in my head !!!
Todays Worry : put a clean pair of jeans on....hold on they feel quite loose
they weren't like that last week !
Irrational Thought : I'm losing weight too fast, there MUST be something wrong with me ! I now want to go and try on all my jeans to see if they all feel loose !!!!
Rational Thought : After having very little appetite over the past 5 weeks i have bound to have lost weight. I am not going to try my other jeans on (well i did try one pair ! )
Thanks for reading my ramblings, feel free to add yours !!! xxxx:wacko: