Badger74
22-04-11, 19:45
Just wondering if i'm the only one who really really suffers and loses the plot completely once it gets above 20c? I've been like this now for about 6/7 years and not a summer has gone by since then when i haven't have a really really bad relapse & most years been signed off for anything between 2 & 6 weeks. And it's happened again, although so far, i've not had to take any diazepam (which happens when all my usual coping methods don't cut it) so i'm really pleased with myself for that.
The weird thing is, i love the sun really; when i'm feeling ok, i love sunbathing and love entertaining friends in our garden. But when i'm feeling really bad (like today) i have to sit indoors with the blinds shut & a fan blasting at me all the time. My head, neck, face & chest is roasting hot (but i don't sweat), but the rest of my body is cold, and i have to have a blanket over me.
Today, i managed to walk my puppy with my Hubs & was really pleased, as didn't think i'd make it, and then spent the day reading "mindful way thru depression" and have just managed a walk again now by myself (so again really pleased) but i just don't understand why this keeps happening to me, when every year & i always get better and managed to go back to work and survive, yet, every yr, as soon as we have a heatwave-it comes back with a vengence?
Sorry, didn't want this to be an essay, just desparate to hear that i'm not the only one? Has anyone had this ever?:huh:
Thanks for listening/reading.x
The weird thing is, i love the sun really; when i'm feeling ok, i love sunbathing and love entertaining friends in our garden. But when i'm feeling really bad (like today) i have to sit indoors with the blinds shut & a fan blasting at me all the time. My head, neck, face & chest is roasting hot (but i don't sweat), but the rest of my body is cold, and i have to have a blanket over me.
Today, i managed to walk my puppy with my Hubs & was really pleased, as didn't think i'd make it, and then spent the day reading "mindful way thru depression" and have just managed a walk again now by myself (so again really pleased) but i just don't understand why this keeps happening to me, when every year & i always get better and managed to go back to work and survive, yet, every yr, as soon as we have a heatwave-it comes back with a vengence?
Sorry, didn't want this to be an essay, just desparate to hear that i'm not the only one? Has anyone had this ever?:huh:
Thanks for listening/reading.x