Melon1
28-04-11, 20:34
Hi Everyone.... Am really sad and so worried. I posted about a week ago. I have had horrible low stomach cramping and pains in lower back and down my left leg and groin. I have convinced myself that it is something awful (C) and am still terrified. To make matters worse, when I saw my GP last week, she said that she would refer me for an ultrasound, so I have been waiting for the letter to come through the post.
A friend told me to phone the hospital direct today, which I did and they have no record of my referral. I imagined that with all the bank hols of late that there would be a delay. Anyway, I phoned my doctor and the receptionist passed on a message asking her to call me as I was chasing up my ultrasound referral. A few hours later the receptionist calls me saying that my doc did not refer me for an ultrasound as she wanted to see what the IBS meds did first... (I def do not have IBS). She definitely said that she was going to send me. That is the only way that I could have left her office without breaking down.
I was heartbroken and cried and cried. I cant believe that I have to now wait until tuesday to see a doctor. My weekend is ruined. My mum, bless her has said that she would pay to go private as the hospital told me there is a 3-4 week waiting list for ultrasounds and I so can't wait that long.
I really need some reassurance that this is just anxiety. I keep trying to do things which I think people with hideous diseases couldn't do... I am a keen runner, so have been running loads lately just to prove to myself I can still do it..... I have so many strange thoughts it is untrue. I feel every twinge, creak my body does.
I just want to get this HA blip out of the way and then get heavy with some self help books and possibly some 1:1 counselling. I have to get better for the sake of my husband and children.
I dont want to be miserable and desperate. It is the royal wedding tomorrow and I am supposed to be entertaining. I don't want to :weep:
Can anyone give me some reassurance.
XXXX
A friend told me to phone the hospital direct today, which I did and they have no record of my referral. I imagined that with all the bank hols of late that there would be a delay. Anyway, I phoned my doctor and the receptionist passed on a message asking her to call me as I was chasing up my ultrasound referral. A few hours later the receptionist calls me saying that my doc did not refer me for an ultrasound as she wanted to see what the IBS meds did first... (I def do not have IBS). She definitely said that she was going to send me. That is the only way that I could have left her office without breaking down.
I was heartbroken and cried and cried. I cant believe that I have to now wait until tuesday to see a doctor. My weekend is ruined. My mum, bless her has said that she would pay to go private as the hospital told me there is a 3-4 week waiting list for ultrasounds and I so can't wait that long.
I really need some reassurance that this is just anxiety. I keep trying to do things which I think people with hideous diseases couldn't do... I am a keen runner, so have been running loads lately just to prove to myself I can still do it..... I have so many strange thoughts it is untrue. I feel every twinge, creak my body does.
I just want to get this HA blip out of the way and then get heavy with some self help books and possibly some 1:1 counselling. I have to get better for the sake of my husband and children.
I dont want to be miserable and desperate. It is the royal wedding tomorrow and I am supposed to be entertaining. I don't want to :weep:
Can anyone give me some reassurance.
XXXX