karlyo
30-04-11, 19:04
Hi everyone,
I haven't posted in a while as I've been doing really well lately, but I can just feel myself starting to slip and thought I'd check in for some support. Anyone who has read my old posts will know my predominant anxiety has been female cancers - cervical, ovarian, breast - all 3 have worried me at some point.
Anyway, in November I had an abnormal smear result (not a good thing for someone with my worries!). It was just a borderline one, so nothing too serious, but it did have me worried. I was really proud of myself and managed to put it out of my mind for 6 months.
Last week I had my repeat test. I have to say I found it painful and haven't in the past, I think the nurse was quite rough. And there was obviously a bit of blood too as I saw it in the little sample pot she put the swab in.
Now I'm just starting to worry about the results a bit - I know that 9 out of 10 of these go back to normal, but I'm beginning to feel I'll be the 1 in 10 whose gets worse, and that it'll probably be cancer.
I've even started wondering if it's spread to my ovaries as I'm a bit bloated at the moment...I think realistically I am bloated cos I'm stressed about exams and not eating brilliantly.
I'm not in a pit of despair quite yet! But I'm not feeling as good as I have been...just wondered if anyone had some words of wisdom or if anyone has been in this position themselves?
Thanks so much,
K
I haven't posted in a while as I've been doing really well lately, but I can just feel myself starting to slip and thought I'd check in for some support. Anyone who has read my old posts will know my predominant anxiety has been female cancers - cervical, ovarian, breast - all 3 have worried me at some point.
Anyway, in November I had an abnormal smear result (not a good thing for someone with my worries!). It was just a borderline one, so nothing too serious, but it did have me worried. I was really proud of myself and managed to put it out of my mind for 6 months.
Last week I had my repeat test. I have to say I found it painful and haven't in the past, I think the nurse was quite rough. And there was obviously a bit of blood too as I saw it in the little sample pot she put the swab in.
Now I'm just starting to worry about the results a bit - I know that 9 out of 10 of these go back to normal, but I'm beginning to feel I'll be the 1 in 10 whose gets worse, and that it'll probably be cancer.
I've even started wondering if it's spread to my ovaries as I'm a bit bloated at the moment...I think realistically I am bloated cos I'm stressed about exams and not eating brilliantly.
I'm not in a pit of despair quite yet! But I'm not feeling as good as I have been...just wondered if anyone had some words of wisdom or if anyone has been in this position themselves?
Thanks so much,
K