worried girl
04-05-11, 15:55
Hello,
I am new to the forum but been reading it for a few years. I am a 27 year old girl and have sufferer from health anxiety for years. I have had many cancer worries in my life, breast lymphoma... Lately I am scared of bowel cancer. I can not stop checking for blood and I know it really gross but it is ruining my life. Today I have no one to talk to and I am litteraly shaking with panic.
What happened to me this morning is that when I had a BM I found some pieces of tomatoes or red pepper. I was fine at first but it did send my HA in overdrive eventually. I spent about 2 hours checking and checking for blood, rubbing so hard I ended up in absolute agony. I then managed to stop. However a few hours later I went back to the bathroom and noticed that I was bleeding for real this time obviously from rubbing so hard I have broken the skin. I can actually see the cuts.
Even though I now it is self inflicted I can't stop thinking about it. I don't know how to stop. I am crying because I am so worried. I need your help to find reassurance and tips to clear my mind. I feel so lonely and helpless.
Thank you for reading.
I am new to the forum but been reading it for a few years. I am a 27 year old girl and have sufferer from health anxiety for years. I have had many cancer worries in my life, breast lymphoma... Lately I am scared of bowel cancer. I can not stop checking for blood and I know it really gross but it is ruining my life. Today I have no one to talk to and I am litteraly shaking with panic.
What happened to me this morning is that when I had a BM I found some pieces of tomatoes or red pepper. I was fine at first but it did send my HA in overdrive eventually. I spent about 2 hours checking and checking for blood, rubbing so hard I ended up in absolute agony. I then managed to stop. However a few hours later I went back to the bathroom and noticed that I was bleeding for real this time obviously from rubbing so hard I have broken the skin. I can actually see the cuts.
Even though I now it is self inflicted I can't stop thinking about it. I don't know how to stop. I am crying because I am so worried. I need your help to find reassurance and tips to clear my mind. I feel so lonely and helpless.
Thank you for reading.