Joellie
04-05-11, 20:44
Im currently at the point in my treatment where ive been on citalopram for about 10 months now and generally good all round a few hiccups here and there but overall im quite good.
However recently ive been spending and spending and spending and i cant stop myself. Once i go into town I see things i like and i get them without even trying to convince myself to wait or to tell myself i dont need it.
I buy things i need and things that i dont need but for some reason my usual voice of 'can you afford this? do you need this?' is absent. Its only after ive left the shop that i feel realy guilty about it and really bad. And its like im beating myself up about it. I can afford some things but not nearly as much as ive been spending recently.
Its like i get a kick out of having something new. Im not in a great way with my self esteem about myself or my appearance and i feel like buying nice things means peopel will look at the nice things rather than me! I take about 25% of what i buy back because once im home i realise i cant afford it. However once im in shops its like i get gripped again and somtimes i just exchange rather than return and i feel bad all over again!
Its started mainly when i started uni and i got my student loans. But im getting worried now and in a way i feel i should get help for it!
What do you think?
However recently ive been spending and spending and spending and i cant stop myself. Once i go into town I see things i like and i get them without even trying to convince myself to wait or to tell myself i dont need it.
I buy things i need and things that i dont need but for some reason my usual voice of 'can you afford this? do you need this?' is absent. Its only after ive left the shop that i feel realy guilty about it and really bad. And its like im beating myself up about it. I can afford some things but not nearly as much as ive been spending recently.
Its like i get a kick out of having something new. Im not in a great way with my self esteem about myself or my appearance and i feel like buying nice things means peopel will look at the nice things rather than me! I take about 25% of what i buy back because once im home i realise i cant afford it. However once im in shops its like i get gripped again and somtimes i just exchange rather than return and i feel bad all over again!
Its started mainly when i started uni and i got my student loans. But im getting worried now and in a way i feel i should get help for it!
What do you think?