superkit9974
09-05-11, 19:15
Hi, I'm new here, and I need help http://www.anxietyzone.com/Smileys/default/sad.gif
I broke up with my ex of 3 years about 1 1/2 years ago, I thought he was the love of my life but my anxiety ruined our relationship and I broke up with him because I could tell he couldn't deal with my anxiety and he then cheated on me. I jumped into another relationship and although we are happy, some of the time we hit rock bottom, I keep almost leaving him because I think it would be easier and less painful than him hating me for my anxiety and then leaving me. We live together and so we see eachother alot but when he says he wants to go out I feel my anxiety sky rocket and I ask him not to and end up guilt tripping him and creating an argument so he won't go... I know its wrong and I hate doing it but I can't stop it... its like an evil side of me takes over its awful and I feel so bad!! I cry so often about our relationship, all I want to do is make him happy but that goes out of the window when he wants to go out.
I worry constantly about something bad happening to him, if he doesn't answer his phone I have panic attacks because I worry that he has had an accident or something.
I find it really hard to get motivated to keep the house tidy and I feel terrible for this as I don't earn alot and I think that I should be the one cleanng and cooking. I find it hard to cook for him also because I'm anxious about food poisioning and also the majority of the time I have stomach ache because of my anxiety so I am unable to eat.
Any posts would really be appreciated.
Many Thanks
superkit9974
I broke up with my ex of 3 years about 1 1/2 years ago, I thought he was the love of my life but my anxiety ruined our relationship and I broke up with him because I could tell he couldn't deal with my anxiety and he then cheated on me. I jumped into another relationship and although we are happy, some of the time we hit rock bottom, I keep almost leaving him because I think it would be easier and less painful than him hating me for my anxiety and then leaving me. We live together and so we see eachother alot but when he says he wants to go out I feel my anxiety sky rocket and I ask him not to and end up guilt tripping him and creating an argument so he won't go... I know its wrong and I hate doing it but I can't stop it... its like an evil side of me takes over its awful and I feel so bad!! I cry so often about our relationship, all I want to do is make him happy but that goes out of the window when he wants to go out.
I worry constantly about something bad happening to him, if he doesn't answer his phone I have panic attacks because I worry that he has had an accident or something.
I find it really hard to get motivated to keep the house tidy and I feel terrible for this as I don't earn alot and I think that I should be the one cleanng and cooking. I find it hard to cook for him also because I'm anxious about food poisioning and also the majority of the time I have stomach ache because of my anxiety so I am unable to eat.
Any posts would really be appreciated.
Many Thanks
superkit9974