phil06
09-05-11, 23:45
I feel really low again as for the past few weeks I've just sat in as I've had nothing to do..out of work at the moment but I feel little motivation at the thought of doing stuff. The reason for this is I'm still sitting feeling low here over anxiety symptoms that have lasted a year the bowels, feeling fatigued, over sleeping, depression, depersonalization, thoughts, the ocd..I have weeks where it gets better or even feel back to normal for the odd day and then it hits me again. I set myself a target to go a 15/20 min walk every day I stuck to that target but that was about 2/3 months ago I set that target after staying indoors with panic, now I don't fear going out that's become a comfort and tasks I do less often seem more worrying.
At that point I feel I can't cope..feel really alone dating wise feel there's nobody for me and I'm only 22. Just feel trapped in bad times right now all I can remember is when I did have a g.f or r.ship 4 years ago and a job I enjoyed..as each year has come since it's been harder and more difficult, worse jobs, failing driving tests and back to square one. I discussed this alot with paid for private counselling sessions but just feel I'm still pondering over the same stuff.
Just feel I duno what me is all about these days feel so depressed low, feel so alien in my body sometimes as my life is not where I want to be living with parents at 22 and no direction. I've been here before but with age its more depressing when will I settle..right now I say never, just anxiety mixed with low feelings. Not sure where it's all gone wrong or what I care to fix anymore. :lac:
At that point I feel I can't cope..feel really alone dating wise feel there's nobody for me and I'm only 22. Just feel trapped in bad times right now all I can remember is when I did have a g.f or r.ship 4 years ago and a job I enjoyed..as each year has come since it's been harder and more difficult, worse jobs, failing driving tests and back to square one. I discussed this alot with paid for private counselling sessions but just feel I'm still pondering over the same stuff.
Just feel I duno what me is all about these days feel so depressed low, feel so alien in my body sometimes as my life is not where I want to be living with parents at 22 and no direction. I've been here before but with age its more depressing when will I settle..right now I say never, just anxiety mixed with low feelings. Not sure where it's all gone wrong or what I care to fix anymore. :lac: