venusbluejeans
10-05-11, 14:11
Hi My name Is Emma,
I have been suffering with anxiety for years. back in 2004 I found my dad dead on our kitchen floor, which really set off a bad attack (not sure anyone could not be affected by that really) but I am sure my anxiety has been going on for longer since secondry school days, because looking back i used to have the same feelings that I am having now but was not able to put a name to it.
for the last month I have been having the old symptoms back again the foggy head and the feeling of not being here and also the panic attacks and the feeling dizzy etc.....
what really bothers me is the feeling of me being in an 'alien world' where I am here and everything seems really alien to me really panics me. as the feeling is ALL the time and of course panicing just makes the feeling worse.
this last Sunday would have been my dads birthday and he also died at the end of May so that may explain some of it this time but this has been going on for at least a month so i think there is more to it.
I seem to have a big fear of being alone, at the minute I can not do anything alone, struggling to drive and can only drive if someone is there, petrified of being alone in the house.....
my Mum took lots of time some time off work to be with me and the symptoms subsided to a certain extent but now she has had to go back to work the symptoms have come back with a thump....
Would love to just be able to get in my car and go for a drive alone but that petrifys me.
before this all sterted I had joined the gym (I am 17 stone) and my life was looking up as I was enjopying going to 3 gym classes a week plus going to the gym other times a week....... maybe this was too much exercise all in one go as I did not really exercise before hand. but I can not even go there at the minute because of the 'alien world' feeling...
I have so much too look forward to (on holiday next week, I have to drive!!)but I just can not look forward to them at the minute because how I am feeling....
I have been suffering with anxiety for years. back in 2004 I found my dad dead on our kitchen floor, which really set off a bad attack (not sure anyone could not be affected by that really) but I am sure my anxiety has been going on for longer since secondry school days, because looking back i used to have the same feelings that I am having now but was not able to put a name to it.
for the last month I have been having the old symptoms back again the foggy head and the feeling of not being here and also the panic attacks and the feeling dizzy etc.....
what really bothers me is the feeling of me being in an 'alien world' where I am here and everything seems really alien to me really panics me. as the feeling is ALL the time and of course panicing just makes the feeling worse.
this last Sunday would have been my dads birthday and he also died at the end of May so that may explain some of it this time but this has been going on for at least a month so i think there is more to it.
I seem to have a big fear of being alone, at the minute I can not do anything alone, struggling to drive and can only drive if someone is there, petrified of being alone in the house.....
my Mum took lots of time some time off work to be with me and the symptoms subsided to a certain extent but now she has had to go back to work the symptoms have come back with a thump....
Would love to just be able to get in my car and go for a drive alone but that petrifys me.
before this all sterted I had joined the gym (I am 17 stone) and my life was looking up as I was enjopying going to 3 gym classes a week plus going to the gym other times a week....... maybe this was too much exercise all in one go as I did not really exercise before hand. but I can not even go there at the minute because of the 'alien world' feeling...
I have so much too look forward to (on holiday next week, I have to drive!!)but I just can not look forward to them at the minute because how I am feeling....