londonchris
13-05-11, 09:16
Hi all,
I haven't been on here for a while because to be honest I've been feeling great. I made a decision to just quit worrying about everything and live my life to the full, no matter how long I've got left. I also started to believe what Claire Weekes' book said because it all made so much sense to me. Her first couple of chapters where she gave an imaginary case was me to an absolute tee.
Yesterday afternoon I went to the gym for a work out. I went on the weights and was feeling good so I decided to go for a bit of cardio work and went on the rowing machine.
I rowed 1000m in around 4.30 and felt ok when I was on the rower. Yes it was hard work but I wasn't getting too breathless or anything.
Now my anxiety all revolves around my heart because this is how it originated and this is what worries me the most, with ectopic beats etc. However, I didn't have any ectopics on the rower.
It's only when I stopped that I realised just how hard my heart was beating. I felt like it was thumping out of my neck. I don't know how fast it was going, but it felt fast.
Looking back, I don't really know what I expected to happen. Maybe I pushed it too hard. Either way it set me off again and I was worrying all evening.
This morning I've woken up with the same "edgy" feeling I used to get before, tense, tight chested, fidgety. I know my nerves are sensitised because my girlfriend accidentally gently knocked my foot yesterday and practically my whole leg twitched in shock.
It's bizarre to say the least. Deep down I know I don't have a heart problem - it's been checked out, I've had a 24 hour EKG, I had an echo done 10 years ago, everything about anxiety fits with what I feel I have. But that doesn't make the symptoms any less real. I was scared yesterday when I got off that rowing machine, no doubt about it. But the question which plays over and over in my mind is, was it just sensitised nerves and anxiety? Or did I push myself far too hard? Was my heart racing because it's weak? Was it just my worrying and concentration on the symptoms which made them seem worse?
I'm worried and I feel edgy again, and I want to get myself out of this ASAP because I've been here before and know what can happen if you let yourself slip down the slope again, it means months more suffering trying to drag myself out of it again.
Any help or kind words appreciated
:) :bighug1:
I haven't been on here for a while because to be honest I've been feeling great. I made a decision to just quit worrying about everything and live my life to the full, no matter how long I've got left. I also started to believe what Claire Weekes' book said because it all made so much sense to me. Her first couple of chapters where she gave an imaginary case was me to an absolute tee.
Yesterday afternoon I went to the gym for a work out. I went on the weights and was feeling good so I decided to go for a bit of cardio work and went on the rowing machine.
I rowed 1000m in around 4.30 and felt ok when I was on the rower. Yes it was hard work but I wasn't getting too breathless or anything.
Now my anxiety all revolves around my heart because this is how it originated and this is what worries me the most, with ectopic beats etc. However, I didn't have any ectopics on the rower.
It's only when I stopped that I realised just how hard my heart was beating. I felt like it was thumping out of my neck. I don't know how fast it was going, but it felt fast.
Looking back, I don't really know what I expected to happen. Maybe I pushed it too hard. Either way it set me off again and I was worrying all evening.
This morning I've woken up with the same "edgy" feeling I used to get before, tense, tight chested, fidgety. I know my nerves are sensitised because my girlfriend accidentally gently knocked my foot yesterday and practically my whole leg twitched in shock.
It's bizarre to say the least. Deep down I know I don't have a heart problem - it's been checked out, I've had a 24 hour EKG, I had an echo done 10 years ago, everything about anxiety fits with what I feel I have. But that doesn't make the symptoms any less real. I was scared yesterday when I got off that rowing machine, no doubt about it. But the question which plays over and over in my mind is, was it just sensitised nerves and anxiety? Or did I push myself far too hard? Was my heart racing because it's weak? Was it just my worrying and concentration on the symptoms which made them seem worse?
I'm worried and I feel edgy again, and I want to get myself out of this ASAP because I've been here before and know what can happen if you let yourself slip down the slope again, it means months more suffering trying to drag myself out of it again.
Any help or kind words appreciated
:) :bighug1: