G.Samsa
13-05-11, 22:57
I just cancelled meeting a few friends, people I don't know extremely well, and I don't know how to feel now! I really feel as though I did all I could to try to do it, but I just couldn't manage it!
My body wants to relax now, there's something chemical about avoiding something - like the feeling that comes when you've just been crying. But as soon as I start to indulge in it I think, 'No! You haven't done well, don't pretend you've succeeded!' At the same time, I don't see the sense in putting guilt on myself and sabotaging my self-esteem. The plus, of course, is that I've reminded myself that I need to sort this out (I haven't panicked like this for a little while). But I don't know how - if I can't face things then how will I get better?
I'm such a fool for basically forgetting about it. I was happy in my comfort zone so I didn't bother trying to confront anything, I was getting happier so I thought I was getting better. Oh dear... perhaps I need to learn some kind of smaller persistent effort? Any sympathies or advice would be so appreciated!
My body wants to relax now, there's something chemical about avoiding something - like the feeling that comes when you've just been crying. But as soon as I start to indulge in it I think, 'No! You haven't done well, don't pretend you've succeeded!' At the same time, I don't see the sense in putting guilt on myself and sabotaging my self-esteem. The plus, of course, is that I've reminded myself that I need to sort this out (I haven't panicked like this for a little while). But I don't know how - if I can't face things then how will I get better?
I'm such a fool for basically forgetting about it. I was happy in my comfort zone so I didn't bother trying to confront anything, I was getting happier so I thought I was getting better. Oh dear... perhaps I need to learn some kind of smaller persistent effort? Any sympathies or advice would be so appreciated!