flix08
14-05-11, 16:01
I know it's been ages since i've been on here but i'm having a bit of a hard time at the moment and wanted some advice (thanks to everyone who i've already spoken to about this, just wanted to cast a wider net to get even more help and advice).
I guess i've always had low self-esteem but at the moment its got worse as my confusions about my sexuality have made it a lot worse. I think i'm bi (sometimes i'm sure i'm gay...other times i'm sure i'm bi!) and i have a constant feeling of unwantedness (if thats a word). I know it may seem irrelevant but to me it isn't - all my friends have had boyfriends and/or girlfriends and a lot more, erm, 'experiences' than me. On top of feeling unwanted from guys, i'm now feeling it from women too...The low self-esteem has got even worse now i'm feeling things for women.
I know people will say appearances don't matter but i'm fixated on it..i'm short, a tad chubby and not really that pretty. I'm constantly thinking this must be the reason why no-one wants me even though i know its personality that matters. But why else would i have been alone for so long (23 years now). I know everyone will say i'm still young, but i have friends that are married or already have children, yet i've never even been in a relationship. There must be something wrong with me but i don't understand what it is.
I just want to know if theres anyone else who's gone through (or still going through) the whole sexuality confusion that i could talk to about it all as i don't really feel my friends would understand.
Thanks for reading,
Flix xxx
I guess i've always had low self-esteem but at the moment its got worse as my confusions about my sexuality have made it a lot worse. I think i'm bi (sometimes i'm sure i'm gay...other times i'm sure i'm bi!) and i have a constant feeling of unwantedness (if thats a word). I know it may seem irrelevant but to me it isn't - all my friends have had boyfriends and/or girlfriends and a lot more, erm, 'experiences' than me. On top of feeling unwanted from guys, i'm now feeling it from women too...The low self-esteem has got even worse now i'm feeling things for women.
I know people will say appearances don't matter but i'm fixated on it..i'm short, a tad chubby and not really that pretty. I'm constantly thinking this must be the reason why no-one wants me even though i know its personality that matters. But why else would i have been alone for so long (23 years now). I know everyone will say i'm still young, but i have friends that are married or already have children, yet i've never even been in a relationship. There must be something wrong with me but i don't understand what it is.
I just want to know if theres anyone else who's gone through (or still going through) the whole sexuality confusion that i could talk to about it all as i don't really feel my friends would understand.
Thanks for reading,
Flix xxx