ScaredCaz
18-05-11, 14:01
Hi Guys
Not been here for a while again which i should i should help people when i am well and im sorry i dont :-(
I am having a bad time again my hubby is very depressed at the min and my time and energy are so consummed with making sure he is ok i can feel my old fears coming back
I suffer with muscle problems in my back especially around my shoulder blades i am always tense always on edge always waiting for something awful to happen i have a 9 yr old son with Autism who seems to be emotionally over loaded at the minute and my husband is depressed about alot of things but one of them is he feels our sons Autism is his fault due to his bad "genes" i know it is his depression talking but it is making him avoid our son when he is angry which i think our son is picking up on and it goes round and round i dont know what to do....
On top of that i started a new job yesterday just a couple of days in a supermarket a little bit of "me time" i was in the induction and had a panic attack no one knew i was deep breathing and i stayed calm i am actually very proud of myself for getting through it i was having the same ols visions i get of being took to hospital having had a heart attack i was getting chest pains which i know are muscular but when it happens i am sure this is it and i am on my way out of this world
How do i cope with my hubbys depression (which has resulted in him attempting suicide last year but recently only talking of doing it) plus the impact it is having on my son which i cant talk to hubby about because he feels guilty makes the depression worse and so on and my own anxiety?
Today i am tired my back hurts,aches it makes the muscles in my chest ache which make me think i am having a heart attack my neck is stiff im so tired my arms feel heavy i have the 2nd day of my induction tomorrow i dont want to have another panic attack i am so excited about this job i am looking forward to every part of it
Sorry to go on all help is so so welcome thanks guys
Not been here for a while again which i should i should help people when i am well and im sorry i dont :-(
I am having a bad time again my hubby is very depressed at the min and my time and energy are so consummed with making sure he is ok i can feel my old fears coming back
I suffer with muscle problems in my back especially around my shoulder blades i am always tense always on edge always waiting for something awful to happen i have a 9 yr old son with Autism who seems to be emotionally over loaded at the minute and my husband is depressed about alot of things but one of them is he feels our sons Autism is his fault due to his bad "genes" i know it is his depression talking but it is making him avoid our son when he is angry which i think our son is picking up on and it goes round and round i dont know what to do....
On top of that i started a new job yesterday just a couple of days in a supermarket a little bit of "me time" i was in the induction and had a panic attack no one knew i was deep breathing and i stayed calm i am actually very proud of myself for getting through it i was having the same ols visions i get of being took to hospital having had a heart attack i was getting chest pains which i know are muscular but when it happens i am sure this is it and i am on my way out of this world
How do i cope with my hubbys depression (which has resulted in him attempting suicide last year but recently only talking of doing it) plus the impact it is having on my son which i cant talk to hubby about because he feels guilty makes the depression worse and so on and my own anxiety?
Today i am tired my back hurts,aches it makes the muscles in my chest ache which make me think i am having a heart attack my neck is stiff im so tired my arms feel heavy i have the 2nd day of my induction tomorrow i dont want to have another panic attack i am so excited about this job i am looking forward to every part of it
Sorry to go on all help is so so welcome thanks guys