Purple Fish
19-05-11, 09:42
Hey,
I haven't been on here in ages but here goes! At the moment I am absolutely hating my job, it's the people, the actual work itself so on so on. I am currently training to be a Team Leader and am waiting on a change of department providing the hours will suit my family life and it's like my whole life depends on it! It will be more money and better work, I should find out by the end of this week but I'm dreading if it doesn't work out. I'm going to feel like taking time off sick or something!
The other stress is how guilty I am about the way I feel towards my brother and my parents. My mum and dad spend a lot of time with my brother and his fiancee's parents, they all get on really well which I know is good but when I do speak to my mum and dad all they go on about is what they've all done together. My brother's getting married next year and I'm dreading what will happen if babies arrive!
I've got two children 15 and 12 and although my parent's spent lot's of time with us when they were younger, now the kids are older they're not so bothered about seeing their grandparents and would rather be out with their mates.
I suppose I'm jealous. My brother lives literally the other side of the garden wall to my parents house and although we're only a 5 minute drive away they are in and out of each others houses. My brother's fiancee isn't exactly a barrel of laughs and is not really on my wave length so it's so difficult. Me and my brother used to be so close but now he's got his own life I suppose.
When I do see my mum and dad it feels really hard to act happy and chatty unless I've had some wine. they've never said anything but they must know. My husband can see my point of view and I do talk to my godmother quite a lot as she understands but we both say that if I was to let out how I feel to my mum she would be devastated and she probably wouldn't realise.
I need to get a grip I think but it's so hard. My husband can see how it effects me and he gets quite angry because I never speak up. I don't want to fall out with them but how do I keep smiling? I won't have any teeth left soon due to all the grinding!
As for work i guess it's fingers crossed but I won't have any sanity if it doesn't work out!
Thanks for reading!
xx
I haven't been on here in ages but here goes! At the moment I am absolutely hating my job, it's the people, the actual work itself so on so on. I am currently training to be a Team Leader and am waiting on a change of department providing the hours will suit my family life and it's like my whole life depends on it! It will be more money and better work, I should find out by the end of this week but I'm dreading if it doesn't work out. I'm going to feel like taking time off sick or something!
The other stress is how guilty I am about the way I feel towards my brother and my parents. My mum and dad spend a lot of time with my brother and his fiancee's parents, they all get on really well which I know is good but when I do speak to my mum and dad all they go on about is what they've all done together. My brother's getting married next year and I'm dreading what will happen if babies arrive!
I've got two children 15 and 12 and although my parent's spent lot's of time with us when they were younger, now the kids are older they're not so bothered about seeing their grandparents and would rather be out with their mates.
I suppose I'm jealous. My brother lives literally the other side of the garden wall to my parents house and although we're only a 5 minute drive away they are in and out of each others houses. My brother's fiancee isn't exactly a barrel of laughs and is not really on my wave length so it's so difficult. Me and my brother used to be so close but now he's got his own life I suppose.
When I do see my mum and dad it feels really hard to act happy and chatty unless I've had some wine. they've never said anything but they must know. My husband can see my point of view and I do talk to my godmother quite a lot as she understands but we both say that if I was to let out how I feel to my mum she would be devastated and she probably wouldn't realise.
I need to get a grip I think but it's so hard. My husband can see how it effects me and he gets quite angry because I never speak up. I don't want to fall out with them but how do I keep smiling? I won't have any teeth left soon due to all the grinding!
As for work i guess it's fingers crossed but I won't have any sanity if it doesn't work out!
Thanks for reading!
xx