jonnyf
20-05-11, 18:48
hi guys im just turned 24 ive had anxiety since about 14/15 after taking some recreational drugs and having a few panic attacks.. this lead to an anxiety because i felt i was dying and being so young even the doctor explaining it was only panic attacks. i felt extremely anxious for months and months after. i began to get back to normal life but was forever overly worried about things that might happen and was very sensitive about health related issues.
over the years i have seen my doctor only a couple of times as i kinda lived with it as a constant but controlled anxiety rarely getting to the point of panic..
However 2 days after a punch in the face while out with friends last year i developed vision problems. i was seen to by an ambulance team after the initial assault who said i was fine and i was the next day although very anxious to the point of panic attack which the next morning led to vision problems.. i did see optician who said i was fine and months went by i got back to normal (sort of) but now i have a constant vision issue at stressful times. and anytime i sort of think about it.
weirdly though in the last fee years i feel ive been getting worse and worse anything makes me feel anxious.. the thought of going on holiday because of the flight and being away if i feel ''funny'' whilst so far from home.. a long road trip.. a new job.. new college course.. basically anything.
i have never took meds either. at a bad point last year i was prescribed citalopram but i never took it as i read they could make me feel worse at first.. this was enough to put me off.
im not so much as depressed i always know that the feelings are there but ive been getting through life with them. im just noticing im getting worse instead of better and i need to calm it all down and get a grip.
i always thought facing fear was the best way of dealing with it? thats what a CBT therapist told me but she found me difficult because i understood what was wrong with me completely and faced up to everything that i feared but id still fear everything the next time aswell.
for example i had a panic while watching a gruesome film at the cinema once and the thought of going to a cinema terrifys me but ive been loads of times since but it still gets me every time????
any advice is much welcome..
:hugs:
over the years i have seen my doctor only a couple of times as i kinda lived with it as a constant but controlled anxiety rarely getting to the point of panic..
However 2 days after a punch in the face while out with friends last year i developed vision problems. i was seen to by an ambulance team after the initial assault who said i was fine and i was the next day although very anxious to the point of panic attack which the next morning led to vision problems.. i did see optician who said i was fine and months went by i got back to normal (sort of) but now i have a constant vision issue at stressful times. and anytime i sort of think about it.
weirdly though in the last fee years i feel ive been getting worse and worse anything makes me feel anxious.. the thought of going on holiday because of the flight and being away if i feel ''funny'' whilst so far from home.. a long road trip.. a new job.. new college course.. basically anything.
i have never took meds either. at a bad point last year i was prescribed citalopram but i never took it as i read they could make me feel worse at first.. this was enough to put me off.
im not so much as depressed i always know that the feelings are there but ive been getting through life with them. im just noticing im getting worse instead of better and i need to calm it all down and get a grip.
i always thought facing fear was the best way of dealing with it? thats what a CBT therapist told me but she found me difficult because i understood what was wrong with me completely and faced up to everything that i feared but id still fear everything the next time aswell.
for example i had a panic while watching a gruesome film at the cinema once and the thought of going to a cinema terrifys me but ive been loads of times since but it still gets me every time????
any advice is much welcome..
:hugs: