Lanesra
24-05-11, 18:59
I am...was...a stickler for Googling every little symptom that I have experienced for the past 2 years. I used to give myself the excuse that it would put my mind at ease although 80% of the time it didn't but I just had this obsession with instant reassurance and Google was the only way I could search for that....until I found NMP where I could relate so many of my symptoms to anxiety.
It seems to have only recently dawned on me that Google will make me feel worse, I knew it before but only now do I picture the more likely consequences of going on it and I can't face spending hours looking frantically at websites and feel my heart race every time I read something I don't want to.
I'm still tempted but the more times you force yourself not to, the easier it becomes.
My only problem now is that I read something on here that scared the life out of me. No offence to the poster of this comment as I am about to do what they did and write about the latest fear and I also hope this doesn't have the same effect on anyone as it did me - just need a bit of reassurance.
Last week someone wrote on here that they had read somewhere that itching is one of the first signs of Lymphoma. I've never had a fear of this before (mine's always been Leukaemia) Now I keep reading into every itching feeling I get and the more I think about it the more I keep itching.....just like when you think about nits! I have no swollen lymph nodes to my knowledge so why am I worrying about something so ridiculous and why have I been affected from something I read here the same way I do on Google?!
I am refusing to Google the symptoms of Lymphoma as I know I'll try in every way possible to relate the symptoms to me or look out for them.
This is so ridiculous it's actually laughable!!
It seems to have only recently dawned on me that Google will make me feel worse, I knew it before but only now do I picture the more likely consequences of going on it and I can't face spending hours looking frantically at websites and feel my heart race every time I read something I don't want to.
I'm still tempted but the more times you force yourself not to, the easier it becomes.
My only problem now is that I read something on here that scared the life out of me. No offence to the poster of this comment as I am about to do what they did and write about the latest fear and I also hope this doesn't have the same effect on anyone as it did me - just need a bit of reassurance.
Last week someone wrote on here that they had read somewhere that itching is one of the first signs of Lymphoma. I've never had a fear of this before (mine's always been Leukaemia) Now I keep reading into every itching feeling I get and the more I think about it the more I keep itching.....just like when you think about nits! I have no swollen lymph nodes to my knowledge so why am I worrying about something so ridiculous and why have I been affected from something I read here the same way I do on Google?!
I am refusing to Google the symptoms of Lymphoma as I know I'll try in every way possible to relate the symptoms to me or look out for them.
This is so ridiculous it's actually laughable!!