redredmac
25-05-11, 09:40
Hello
I'm new to all this...
Fist of all a bit about me I'm an single mum of a lovely 10 year old i work part time.
I have not been doing so well for a while. At the start of the year i had a anxiety attack. I was sat watching tv. I felt like i could not swallow and started to panic, felling lightheading chest tight felling sick, feeling like i would pass out. It look a while for me to carm down and get over what had happen. I just pushed it to the back of my mind and got on with things. But then it happend again on the way to work on the bus and called my mum and she talked me round but i have never really moved on from what happend allways feeling like my throat tight making myself swallow just to check.
A few weeks ago things got worse. I was having luch at work and had not been feeling well for a few days thinking i was getting a cold. Then i had this feeling that i was going to faint my heart started bagging away so i got up and left the room and was sick i got worse very quick felling very cold but had sweat running off me work sent me home and i just slepted for 2 days straight. Went to the doctors and had some blood test done and he sugested that i had a virus. But for days I felt so bad couldn't get out of bed. when my test came back it comfumed that i had a virus and also that low iron levels and was put on iron pills.
But the doctor said that he felt that i had anxiety probblems and that they only way i could get over that was facing things full on by going back to work and using the bus and making sure that didn't just sit in the house and do nothing. I didn't agree that I had anxiety. And went back to work for the last few days i have felt good but yesterday and this morning i have found really hard everytime i do something i think what happends if i have a anxiety attack and everyone sees? My body is full of worry i'm worrying about everything i work up last night full of panic and i have no idea why, my breathing is all over the place. I'm a mess i came in from the school run and just bust into tears i just feel like i have lost control, I'm back at work tomoz maybe I'm worrying about that. Me and my son are going on out fisrt holiday on our own on monday and I'm worrying that I will panic on the train that we can't go because of me or that i will have a atack when we are doing something and will spoil the holiday for him.
After re reading my post i'm sorry that i have gone on really i have no one to talk to hear. Maybe i just needed to let it all out.
I think what I'm looking for is a bit of advice on how to get this under contol, I can't let this beat me as the only person that will suffer is my son and i am all he has.
Thanks for taking to time to read my long long rant of a post.
I'm new to all this...
Fist of all a bit about me I'm an single mum of a lovely 10 year old i work part time.
I have not been doing so well for a while. At the start of the year i had a anxiety attack. I was sat watching tv. I felt like i could not swallow and started to panic, felling lightheading chest tight felling sick, feeling like i would pass out. It look a while for me to carm down and get over what had happen. I just pushed it to the back of my mind and got on with things. But then it happend again on the way to work on the bus and called my mum and she talked me round but i have never really moved on from what happend allways feeling like my throat tight making myself swallow just to check.
A few weeks ago things got worse. I was having luch at work and had not been feeling well for a few days thinking i was getting a cold. Then i had this feeling that i was going to faint my heart started bagging away so i got up and left the room and was sick i got worse very quick felling very cold but had sweat running off me work sent me home and i just slepted for 2 days straight. Went to the doctors and had some blood test done and he sugested that i had a virus. But for days I felt so bad couldn't get out of bed. when my test came back it comfumed that i had a virus and also that low iron levels and was put on iron pills.
But the doctor said that he felt that i had anxiety probblems and that they only way i could get over that was facing things full on by going back to work and using the bus and making sure that didn't just sit in the house and do nothing. I didn't agree that I had anxiety. And went back to work for the last few days i have felt good but yesterday and this morning i have found really hard everytime i do something i think what happends if i have a anxiety attack and everyone sees? My body is full of worry i'm worrying about everything i work up last night full of panic and i have no idea why, my breathing is all over the place. I'm a mess i came in from the school run and just bust into tears i just feel like i have lost control, I'm back at work tomoz maybe I'm worrying about that. Me and my son are going on out fisrt holiday on our own on monday and I'm worrying that I will panic on the train that we can't go because of me or that i will have a atack when we are doing something and will spoil the holiday for him.
After re reading my post i'm sorry that i have gone on really i have no one to talk to hear. Maybe i just needed to let it all out.
I think what I'm looking for is a bit of advice on how to get this under contol, I can't let this beat me as the only person that will suffer is my son and i am all he has.
Thanks for taking to time to read my long long rant of a post.