monkee_monk4
28-05-11, 21:56
i have anxiety and depression.i have sveral health conditions that i have to take care of that if you just had one,would be enough.then i come on here for support and i vent about what happens to me.i get bullied that causes me anxiety and i start scratching my self,to fight the urge to hit my self,i tried to walk away person followed me,then i got in panic attack because i was crying and would my mom who yells at me now for being a baby crying.she did mad cause i post about her.when i'm sick she thinks i should just suck it up,i get anxious thinking about not being cheerful,the other day i wasn't and she got mad.so she didn't fix dinner.so i didn't eat till 1:3oam and i hadn't ate since 8:30am,because i was sick,all because i couldn't tell her what to fix.i missed insulin,she doesn't care anymore,but tells the drs i'm lazy.she is a nurse knows she would get wrote up if pt missed med.and nurse didn't know what to cook,she says she likes to play mind games with me.i did get better with the self harm i try not to bite myself because it got infected.she knows i do this and hit my head just eggs me on or calls me stupid.i try to self soothe instead but it works best if i do it out loud then i get made fun of.